brooch in her lap. âAnd how well will this pay?â
âExtraordinarily well.â She heard the smile in his voice, but kept her attention on the lovely green jewel. âAnd I wonât take a cut of it. Itâs all yours.â
She raised her head at that. There was a glimmer of pleading in his eyes. Perhaps he truly was sorry for what heâd done. And perhaps heâd picked this mission just for herâto prove, in his way, that he understood why sheâd freed those slaves in Skullâs Bay. âI can assume Doneval is well guarded?â
âVery,â Arobynn said, fishing a letter from the desk behind him. âHeâs waiting to do the deal until after the citywide celebrations, so he can run home the next day.â
Celaena glanced toward the ceiling, as if she could see through the wood beams and into her room on the floor above, where her trunks of gold now sat. She didnât
need
the money, but if she were going to pay off her debt to Arobynn, her funds would be severely depleted. And to take this mission wouldnât just be about killingâit would be about helping others, too. How many lives would be destroyed if she didnât dispatch Doneval and his partner and retrieve those sensitive documents?
Arobynn approached her again, and she rose from her chair. He brushed her hair back from her face. âI missed you,â he said.
He opened his arms to her, but didnât make a further move to embrace her. She studied his face. The Mute Master had told her that people dealt with their pain in different waysâthat some chose to drown it, some chose to love it, and some chose to let it turn into rage. While she had no regrets about freeing those two hundred slaves from Skullâs Bay, she had betrayed Arobynn in doing it. Perhaps hurting her had been his way of coping with the pain of that.
And even though there was no excuse in this world for what he had done, Arobynn was all she had. The history that lay between them, dark and twisted and full of secrets, was forged by more than just gold. And if she left him, if she paid off her debts right now and never saw him again â¦
She took a step back, and Arobynn casually lowered his arms, not at all fazed by her rejection. âIâll think about taking on Doneval.â It wasnât a lie. She always took time to consider her missionsâArobynn had always encouraged that.
âIâm sorry,â he said again.
Celaena just gave him another long look before she left.
Her exhaustion hit her the moment she began climbing the polished marble steps of the sweeping grand staircase. A month of hard travelâafter a month of grueling training and heartache. Every time she saw the scar on her neck, or touched it, or felt her clothes brush against it, a tremor of pain went through her as she remembered the betrayal that had caused it. Sheâd believed Ansel was her friendâa life-friend, a friend of the heart. But Anselâs need for revenge had been greater than anything else. Still, wherever Ansel now was, Celaena hoped that she was finally facing what had haunted her for so long.
A passing servant saw her and bowed his head, eyes averted. Everyone who worked here knew more or less who she was, and would keep her identity secret on pain of death. Not that there was much of a point to it now, given that every single one of the Silent Assassins could identify her.
Celaena took a ragged breath, running a hand through her hair. Before entering the city this morning, sheâd stopped at a tavern just outside Rifthold to bathe, to wash her filthy clothes, to put on some cosmetics. She hadnât wanted to stride into the Keep looking like a gutter rat. But she still felt
dirty
.
She passed one of the upstairs drawing rooms, her brows rising at the sound of a pianoforte and laughing people inside. If Arobynn had company, then why had he been in his study,
ever so busy
, when she