Love Made Me Do It Read Free

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    CH.36                            The Rules                                                                      PG 320
    CH.37                            The Butterfly Doors                                                        PG 331
    CH.38                            The Aftermath                                                                      PG 337
    CH.39                            Home Sweet Home                                                                      PG 348
     
                                A letter to myself                                                                       PG 356
                                Domestic Violence Awareness                                          PG 359
     

 
     
     
     
     
    Chapter 1
    LOVE AT FIRT SIGHT
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    I’ll never forget the night that I fell in love. There is just something wonderful about being in love. I was not prepared to experience love at first site. This night was like no other, I met the man that I would spend the next 10 years with.  Go to the bottom with, but never make it to the top with. I would be shown the depths of hell, and realize the limits that love should have. 
    We met on October 22nd 1999.  I loved him instantly, smitten by his charm, and his sarcastic sense of humor.  But at that time I didn't know what I would be sacrificing. I didn't know that my freedom, sanity, and my life would be put on the line.  Willingly, I put him before all others.  There was no forewarning that our ideas of love were polar opposites.   Looking back I believe that it was all worth it, if I save someone else from making similar mistakes.  Allow my story to give you not only a choice but a voice... I lived thru the abuse, the drugs, the incarceration and the ultimate betrayal.  Initially, I wanted to experience the greatest love of my life.  However, I experienced something much better.  I learned how to survive and keep going. 
    Our 1st encounter was a little out of the ordinary.  I was practicing for my driver’s license test, with a friend of mine.  But we took a detour.  This detour delivered me to my lovers door step.  His brother answered the door, invited us to come in and make ourselves comfortable.  His brother disappeared into a back room.  I overheard him say, “Blood, wake-up there is some fine light skin girl in the living room with an S Curl.” I tried hard not to laugh.  I was curious to see who would come out of the back room.
    What an entrance he made.  He was tall and handsome with a big smile plastered on his face.  He looked me up and down.  Then looked at the engagement ring on my finger and started laughing. He started singing…. “Engage me baby, crescent jeweler baby.”  “Whoever gave you that ring should be ashamed of their self.”  I tried not to laugh, as I glanced down at my hand. He was right my fiancé should have been ashamed of his self. For many reasons not just the size of my ring. He broke the ice with his jokes and he had my attention. 
    We mingled; me and him and his brother and my girlfriend.  We laughed, drank and talked shit. I was young, wild and carefree, and open to any possibility that could bring happiness. We moved into the dining room and played dominoes. I sat across from him and I remember being nervous.  He never took his eyes off of me.  Usually, I am never nervous and very