bathroom.
Uncle Cliff arrives.
âMatty,â he says. âAre you alright?â
Matt nods, still grinning.
The angry officials start to have a go at Uncle Cliff, probably because they think heâs Mattâs parent or guardian. Uncle Cliff steers them away from us.
Mattâs grin disappears. I know why. Heâs worried theyâll tell Mum and Dad.
âItâs OK,â I say. âUncle Cliffâs calming them down.â
We watch Uncle Cliff calming down the angry officials.
âFair go,â Uncle Cliff is saying to them. âIf you want cattle running round for the news cameras, you should have warning signs. Health and safety, page one. And production assistants with luminous vests.â
Uncle Cliff is good with angry people. He reckons itâs a skill you develop in electrical stores because of the damage electricity does to some electrical products.
Matt is rubbing himself on the shoulder. He sees me notice.
âOne of the cattle pronged me,â he says.
I check him out. But thereâs no blood. His shirt isnât even torn. Which is a huge relief.
âDoesnât hurt much,â says Matt. âNo need to panic.â
Sometimes older brothers can be really dumb. Matt should know by now why I panic. Heâs had nearly two and a half years to work it out.
Itâs because Iâm scared of losing him as well.
After Mum and Dad finish work, we tidy Pete and Dannyâs graves like we do every Sunday arvo.
Dad sweeps, Mum does the flowers, Matt pulls out the weeds and I pick the tree seeds out of the gravel. Birds poo the seeds out. They donât do it on purpose. Itâs something they were born with, like Matt scoring goals.
Mum hates having any sort of tree seeds on the graves. I think itâs because it was a tree that killed Pete and Danny. That and an out-of-control cattle truck with brake pads Uncle Cliff reckons probably came from a pizza shop.
Today Matt is quiet as he weeds.
I know why. His shoulder must be getting stiff, which happens when youâve nearly been killed by cattle, and he doesnât want Mum to see.
I try to cheer things up a bit.
âDad,â I say, âtell us a Pete and Danny story.â
On Sunday arvos Mum and Dad often tell us things about when Pete and Danny were little. The twins were eleven years older than me and I wasnât born when they were small, so itâs a way for me and Matt to get to know them better.
Dad smiles and wipes the sweat off his face with his hand. I love the way his hands are so big. Heâd have made a great goalkeeper. But thatâs OK, because heâs a great removalist.
âOne Christmas,â he says, âNanna and Grandad were visiting from Scotland.â
I smile too because I know this one. Itâs about Pete and Danny when they were toddlers, thinking Nanna and Grandadâs whisky was wee.
âMatt,â says Mum. âWhatâs wrong with your shoulder?
Matt tries to look like nothing is, but the effort of pulling some crabgrass extra hard just made him wince.
âLet me see,â says Mum.
She pushes up the sleeve of his shirt.
Oh no.
A few hours ago it was just a scrape. Now Mattâs shoulder is half covered with a huge bruise from where two hundred kilos of beef pronged him.
âIt looks worse than it is,â mutters Matt.
Silently I ask the gods of soccer, the ones Uncle Cliff reckons players pray to before cup finals, to make a galah fly down and poo a seed on Mumâs head so she gets distracted and doesnât ask how the bruise happened.
No galah appears. The gods of soccer must be English and donât know what a galah is.
Mum is still staring at the bruise. I can see sheâs getting upset.
Any mum probably would after what sheâs been through. Two and a half years ago, when we first got the news about the crash, we thought Matt was dead too.
âMatt,â says Mum. âYou promised you