wouldnât play rough. How many times do I have to remind you? Your legs are held together by bits of metal.â
âOnly three,â mutters Matt. âThree tiny bits.â
Mum glares at him. They argue about this a lot.
Itâs not Mumâs fault. When parents have kids that get killed, they end up extra anxious about their other ones. Itâs why Iâve got more asthma puffers than any other kid in my class. Including one that Mum hides in a tree on the corner of Bentley Street in case I run out on the way to school.
âEasy, love,â says Dad, putting his arm round Mum. âItâs only a bruise. Itâll be gone in a week.â
âItâs getting smaller already,â says Matt.
âIt could be worse,â I say. âMy friend Shay, last week her big brother had an accident with a power sander and one of his tattoos got scraped off.â
Mum and Dad both look at me.
âIt was only a stick-on one,â I say. âBut still.â
Mum laughs. One of those laughs thatâs almost tearful. Then she sighs and the expression on her face is just like Gael-Anne gets after missing a goal. A mixture of upset and annoyed with herself.
âIâm sorry, Matt,â she says. âI am trying.â
âYou are love,â says Dad.
We all know she is.
Uncle Cliff put it best. âWhen your sons go off to a football match in the next town,â he said at the funeral, âand for two of them the final whistle blows seventy years too early, and thereâs no extra time even when you beg, itâs pretty hard to ever trust the ref again.â
I thought that was amazing. Uncle Cliff hasnât even got kids. And he used to be a ref in the under-six Sunday league.
Dad kisses Mum, then looks more closely at Mattâs bruise.
âHope the other blokeâs is bigger,â he says.
Matt doesnât know what to say. We tell the truth in our family. But we also look after Mum.
âLetâs get home,â says Dad. âI need my tea.â
Me and Matt swap a relieved glance. No need for Mum to know about stampeding cattle. Except suddenly a thought plummets into my mind like a tree seed from the bum hole of a bird.
Those TV news cameras at the cattle yard, were any of them pointing at Matt?
No sign of Matt on the news.
So far.
On the TV, the visiting politician is telling the cattle-yard crowd about our beef going to China.
âGood news for a change,â says Mum.
I know why sheâs pleased. When our cattle go to China, they leave their skins behind. That means more leather for the leather goods factory where Mum works.
Dad nods, his mouth full.
Mum and Dad like to eat dinner while we watch the news. That way thereâs not too much chat and they donât miss the important stuff.
I pray Matt wonât be on. If he is, Mum will definitely see it. She can cut a fish finger up and put it in her mouth without taking her eyes off the screen for a blink.
âLove, donât do that,â says Mum to Matt.
Mattâs doing what he usually does when he sits on the lounge. Flicking something from one foot to the other. Tonight itâs a dirty sock.
âHeâs just practising,â I say. âYou need at least ten thousand hours of practice to get really good at anything. Theyâve done studies.â
âAnd have they done studies,â says Dad, âon how many hours of practice it takes to do what your parents tell you?â
Because heâs Dad, he grins after he says it.
Matt stops flicking the sock.
I think the main reason Mum and Dad donât like Matt practising at dinner is it reminds us all of what heâs lost. Before the accident everyone thought heâd be a professional soccer player one day. Now the doctors reckon his legs probably wouldnât stand the strain. We donât talk about it much, but we all know how disappointed Matt must be.
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