Cripple Creek Read Free

whatever's to the left in his closet and through the month moves steadily right, has his CDs numbered
     and plays them in order. Books on his shelves are arranged by size."
    "Maybe she'll save herself."
    "Maybe. Some of us do, don't we? It's just others that we can never save."
    Within the hour I saw Val to her car. Knew she wouldn't stay but asked anyway. She pulled me close and we stood in silent
     embrace. That embrace and the warmth of her body, not to mention the silence, seemed answer enough just then to any questions
     the world might throw me. From the rooftop a barn owl, perhaps the one we'd heard earlier, looked on.
    "Fabulous dinner," she said.
    "Fabulous companion."
    "Yes. You are."
    Owl and I watched as the Volvo backed out to begin the long swing around the lake and away. Owl then swiveled his head right
     around, 180 degrees, like a gun turret. As the sound of Val's motor racketed off the water, I remembered listening to Lonnie's
     Jeep as it came around the lake that first time. I'd put a spray of iris in the trunk where Val kept her briefcase and enjoyed
     thinking of her finding the flowers there.
    Bit of Glenfiddich left in the bottle, meanwhile.
    I poured as the owl flew off to be about its business. This Scotch was mine, and I was going to be about it.
    I'd been close to two years on the streets when I came awake in a white room, hearing beeps and a soughing as of pumps close
     by, garbled conversation further away, ringing phones. I tried to sit up and couldn't. A matronly face appeared above me.
    "You've been shot, Officer. You're fine now. But you need to rest."
    Her hand rose to the IV beside me and thumbed a tiny wheel there—as I sank.
    When next I came around, a different face loomed above me, peering into my eyes from behind a conical light.
    "Feeling better, I hope?"
    Male this time, British or Australian accent.
    Next he moved to the foot of my bed, prodded at my feet. Checking for pulses, as I later learned. He made some notations on
     a clipboard, set it aside, and reached towards the IV.
    I grabbed hold of his hand, shook my head.
    "Doctor's orders," he said.
    "The doctor's here?"
    "Not at the moment, mate."
    "He's not, and we are. But he's still making decisions for both of us?'"
    "You're refusing medication?"
    "Do I need it?"
    "You have to tell me."
    "That I refuse?"
    "Yes. So I can chart it."
    "Okay, I refuse medication."
    "Right you are, then." He picked up the clipboard, made another notation. "Surgeons here like to keep their patients snowed
     the first twenty-four to thirty-six hours. Some of the nurses question that, and rightly so. But who are we?"
    "Besides the ones at bedside going through this shit with us, you mean."
    "That's exactly what I mean."
    "How long have I been here?"
    "Came in around six, p.m. that is, not long before my shift started. That's to intensive care, mind you. You were in OR before,
     I'd guess an hour or so, started off in ER. They wouldn't have kept you down there long with a GSW, you being police and all."
    "What's your name?"
    " Ion."
    Dawn nibbled at the window.
    "Do you know what happened to me, Ion?"
    "Shot on duty's what I got at report, just back from OR, standard ICU orders, no complications. Always anxious to get home
     to her young husband, Billie is. Hold on a sec. I'll get the chart, we can sort this out."
    He was back in moments. Phones rang incessantly at the nurse's station outside my door. There must have been an elevator shaft
     close by. I kept hearing the deep-throated whine of the elevator's voyage, the thunk of it coming into port, the shift in
     hallway sounds when the doors opened.
    Ion pulled a molded plastic visitor's chair up beside the bed, went rummaging through the chart.
    "Looks as though you responded to a domestic dispute called in by neighbors. Got there and found a man beating his wife with
     a segment of garden hose. You took him down—"
    "From behind, with a choke hold."
    "Oh?"
    "And the wife shot me."
    "Coming back to