of melancholy. But it was supposed to be
private.
â When he didnât respond, Lily added pointedly, âThat is a veiled hint for you to leave, my lord.â
Instead of retreating down the loft ladder, he smiled and leaned back, casually resting his weight on his palms and crossing his long, satin-clad legs in front of him, as if settling in for a long stay.
Lily exhaled in a huff. âI donât think you comprehend the danger you are in, Lord Claybourne. It is a grave mistake for you to be alone with me. If Winifred knew, she would be ecstatic.â
âWinifred?â
âLady Freemantle. She is the main reason I left the ball earlyâto escape her scheming. She is trying to mashâ¦match me with you. You must have noticed.â
Her allegation didnât seem to alarm him as it should. âPerhaps, but her machinations are no worse than usual. Iâm well-accustomed to eager mamas throwing their daughters at my head.â
Lily grimaced in disgruntlement. âPerhaps
you
can dismiss her plotting, but I cannot. It is mortifying in the extreme. I am not a prize heifer, to be exhibited before an eligible gentleman and judged for my defects and qualifications.â
His eyes were dancing again. âI should think not.â
At his blithe reply, exasperation welled up in Lily full force. âDo you not
understand
? Winifred wants me to set my cap at you.â
âBut you donât intend to.â
âCertainly not! I have no interest in marriage.â
âThat is quite a unique perspective for a young lady. Most women have made it their mission in life to find a husband.â
âTrue. But you neednât worry about me hounding you, Lord Claybourne. Oh, I know you are a prime catch. You are disgustingly rich, you have a vaunted title, you arenât so shabby in appearance, and you are said to be irresistibly charming.â
âBut you arenât swayed by this delightful catalog of my attributes.â
âNot in the least.â Lily smiled faintly to soften the harshness of her observation. âNo doubt you have a bevy of lovestruck admirers, but I will never join their ranks. And I have no intention of behaving like all the other flagrant husband-hunters you know. I wonât chase after you.â
âYou relieve my mind, Miss Loring. I donât enjoy being chased.â From the provocative laughter in his voice, he seemed to be enjoying himself far too much. âBut I am quite curious to know why you have such a profound distaste for marriage.â
Lily drew a deep breath. Hoyden or not, she normally would never dream of discussing her personal affairs with a perfect stranger. But in this case, she was eager to be rid of him, so a liberal dose of frankness might stand her in good stead.
âIn my experience marriage usually leads to unhappiness for a woman,â she said honestly.
âYou speak from personal experience?â
Lily made a face. âUnfortunately, yes. My parentsâ union was hostile enough to give me an aversion to matrimony for life.â
The gleaming light in Claybourneâs eyes faded as he studied her. His searching perusal was more unsettling than his amusement, however.
âI donât need a husband,â she hurried to add, âdespite what proper society decrees for young ladies. I am financially independent now, thanks to the generous settlement Marcus made me. So I can have a fulfilling life without having to marry.â
âYet you implied you wanted more freedom.â
She smiled uncertainly. âTrue.â Her dream had always been to escape to a life of freedom and adventure. âI mean to use the funds to travel the world and explore new and exciting places.â
âAlone?â
âLady Hester Stanhope did it,â Lily pointed out, mentioning the adventurous earlâs daughter and niece of William Pitt the Younger who had sailed to the Middle East and