even those of us with a little magic. Sitting in that pastry shop, I wondered if Ben had read my mind, had somehow seen Grant there. But in all my travels I hadnât yet met another person who shared the âwaysâ of my motherâs people, so I ignored it.
He pressed me. âWho was it? How long? Do you still know him?â
âI donât talk about it,â I said. âI donât talk about where Iâve been, only where Iâm going. How about we pretend thereâs no past at all. We can be the present.â
âAnd future,â heâd finished, smiling. We kept that promise. Itâs easier than you think to put blinders on and move forward.
Humans have short, selective memories. If we tuck away something important, put it in a safe place ⦠we always end up spending hours trying to find it. Let it stay out in plain sight, and you never have to look for it.
Add that to the things I wish Iâd known back then.
And now, seven years later, we still lived together in the confines of the blissful domesticity weâd created that first July day in Manhattan. Ben was my safe haven. My protector. But most of all, my escape.
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He stood in our kitchen that morning, comfortable and worry-free, with a dish towel carelessly thrown over his shoulder and his bare feet solidly on the wood floor. For a moment I thought I might say yes to his seven-year open-ended question: âMarry me?â
But then the damn phone rang, bringing me back to the life Iâd left behind.
It was my father. I hadnât heard his voice since we said goodbye face-to-face. But every month, like clockwork since the week Iâd left home, Iâd gotten a letter and a check. No matter where my vagabond legs carried me, no matter how many years passed, those letters found me. They never asked me back, and though Iâd long since stopped needing the money, he sent it anyway. But he never called, so I knew I had to talk to him.
Damn Southern manners.
And there it was, the trouble Iâd never expected, all wrapped up in a little girl who shared my name but saw fit to call herself Byrd.
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Byrd
Grown-ups never understand anything by themselves, and it is exhausting for children to have to provide explanations over and over again.
âThe Little Prince
The Old-timers and Towners all think Iâm crazy. They say I act too old for my age, and that my strange ways (even though the whole damn town depends on them) curdle up my thoughts. But thatâs not the thing that bothers me most. I swear, Iâm kept up nights just thinkinâ on how anybody could manufacture such an evil thought about a girl. You know what they think?
Everyone in this godforsaken town thinks Iâm a tomboy .
Damn it. They donât know much about anything. When I grow up and get my woman boobies, theyâre gonna be surprised. Everyone but Jamie. Heâs always told me how pretty I am. Well, and Jackson (heâs my grandpap). My daddy, too. They tell me Iâm beautiful. But they have to because theyâre related to me, and Iâm the only person they got in this whole wide world who loves them. Also, it donât hurt that I look just like the one true love of both their lives, the grandmother I never metâat least while she was alive and everythingâNaomi.
And then, thereâs Minerva (or Minny, â Minny with the red, red hair ,â as Jackson used to tease her), sheâs sorta old now. I tell her sheâs old as dirt ), but I canât not love her because sheâs Naomiâs aunt who came down this way when Naomi and Jackson got married. So sheâs family too, and âblood is blood,â my daddy always says.
Minervaâs husband is Carter. Heâs like another grandpap to me, and another father for my daddy âcause Jacksonâs mostly livinâ in his own world. Thing is, they all live with me. Theyâre my