family, and theyâre supposed to love me and think Iâm beautiful.
But Jamie? He ainât got no other reason to tell me Iâm pretty. Heâs just my friend, plain and simple. And gone or not, heâs still my Little Prince.
The night his mama, Charlotte, got killed, and he went missinâ, Iâd seen him right before supper.
âWhy donât you stay, Jamie? Minervaâs fryinâ up them catfish we caught.â Minerva always acts like the help. She does all the cookinâ and housekeepinâ.
âWhy donât you go on and hire someone else, Minny?â I sometimes asked her. She says, âPay good money to a stranger to do something I like to do? Fiddlesticks.â
(Yankees get all strange about things like that, wantinâ what they donât want, and never even seeinâ that they donât want it.)
Anyway, that night Jamie said no to eatinâ the catfish (which was downright odd).
âNah, I gotta get back to Mama,â he said. He could be such a mamaâs boy sometimes.
âYour mama sure is needy these days. She okay?â I asked. I wasnât a stranger to the drama over at their house. Lottie (thatâs his mamaâs nickname), she was nice to me. But sheâd been actinâ funny before she was killed. Sheâd cut her pretty, dark hair short. Real short, like a boy. She called it a âpixieâ cut, but she didnât look like a pixie. She looked kinda lost and alone. Haunted.
So, me and Jamie were sittinâ on the side porch of the Big House and the sun was just lazily dancing across his face. I could just tell he was tossinâ thoughts around in his head. âSpill them beans, Jamie Masters, or Iâll make mincemeat outta ya!â
That made him laugh. I knew it would. âYou couldnât even hurt me. Youâd be like a no-see-um all bitinâ at me, and Iâd just swat you back into the air.â
âWell, see? You donât want to do that. So why not just tell me? I ainât got nothinâ but time and money.â I sat back in one of the old wicker chairs, letting Jacksonâs favorite phrase come rolling off my tongue.
âDamn, girl, canât I have any secrets?â he asked.
âNope. Not from me.â
He leaned against the railing and looked away, but I knew heâd tell me.
âSheâs altogether torn up over that daddy of yours,â he said.
I didnât want to hear any more âcause I didnât like my daddy mixed up with Charlotte. I didnât know why ⦠then. Couldnât use my strange ways to see into his mind.
They do that, you know. My ways get all wonky when Iâm learninâ something important that has to do with me. If Iâm too close, the sight plays tricks on me. Ainât that the way. Iâm never able to see things that are too close. Sometimes I wonder what good it is to have âem at all if they canât help me figure out the things that need figurinâ.
âSee, I knew you didnât want to hear about this,â said Jamie, watching my face closely.
I got up from the chair and crossed my arms in front of my chest. â No. You are right. I do not want to hear about your mama whining over my daddy. Just run on home and tell her to find herself another man. Sheâs pretty enough, I guess.â
âByrd, it ainât like that! She wants to end it with him .â
That hit me hard. My daddy was always teetering on the edge of a great big sadness that could, and would, eat him up whole. I didnât like his relationship with Lottie, but it kept him happy enough. In fact, theyâd been friends for their whole entire lives before they started lovinâ on each other.
âUh-uh,â I said.
âScoutâs honor! And you know what? I think itâs good. Come on, Byrd, you and me ainât liked it from the git-go.â
âAll right then, if youâre so happy