sure idea what would await her in England, whether Mrs. Brandonâs slander would follow her there, but she had good enough references from other families. And no one would ever need know of this.
She would think of it as a medical procedure, close her eyes and endure. At least no one would cut her open, and the pain would be marginal and quick, or so her sister had told her.
She moved over to the window seat, curling up against the bolted shutters. If Marcello showed up sheâd ask him for food, which heâd probably refuse, but starvation had its own compensations. She was already so muzzy-headed sheâd probably barely notice what they did to her.
She had drifted off to sleep when the door opened and Alistair Rohan came in, heading purposefully toward the table. His head was wet, and clearly heâd just bathed. She would have killed for a bath.
She sank back into the alcove. A mistake, because her movement caught his attention and he turned to stare at her for a long moment, clearly surprised.
âWhat are you still doing here?â he asked in that lazy voice she remembered so well.
Somehow she found she was able to answer. âThey were afraid they might misplace me.â
He gave a short, sharp laugh. âYou look like youâre starving,â he said abruptly. âCan I offer you some food, or will you throw that back in my face?â
âFoodâ¦would be very nice,â she said in a faint voice.
He nodded, more to himself than to her. âCome with me.â
She followed, determined not to fall over, trailing behind the straight, tall back that sheâd once sighed over. The room he brought her to was small and cozy, with a blazing fire to fight off the damp Venetian chill. She stood there, uncertain what to do.
âGo. Sit by the fire,â he said irritably, and disappeared.
She did as she was bid. The chair was cushioned, the fire so hot that her hands and feet finally began to warm, and she could see steam rising from her sodden garments. She ought to be embarrassed, but it was nothing compared to what was coming later that night.
She didnât know how long he was gone. She had probably drifted off to sleep again, because when he appeared, the supercilious Marcello was with him, carrying a heavy tray.
She almost cried then. But she swallowed back the tears as Marcello set the tray down on the table beside her, then moved it in front of her. Soup, baked eels, cold chicken, hard cheese, bread, sweet confections. She couldnât believe the food there, and she didnât know where to start.
âIf you think Iâm going to hand-feed you youâre wrong,â Alistair said, throwing himself down in the chair opposite her.
âDonâtâ¦donât you want any?â Sheâd stab him if he did.
He shook his head. âIâve been eating regular meals. Clearly you havenât.â
It was all she could do not to fall on the food like a ravenous savage. She forced herself to eat slowly, knowing sheâd make herself sick if she shoved it all in her mouth, knowing he was watching her out of those heavy-lidded honey-gold eyes. She was past feeling self-conscious. When she finally finished she sat back, her stomach pleasantly full for the first time in weeks.
She had no choiceâsheâd been brought up with manners. âThank you.â
He raised an eyebrow. âNo longer wanting me dead? Though I canât imagine what Iâve done to earn your enmity. I was trying to save you from the worst folly imaginable.â
âWhy? Oh, I remember. Iâm just so damned pathetic,â she said.
He grinned at that. âI can tell youâre feeling better already. Iâve had Marcello prepare a room for you and a bath. You look as if you havenât had a good nightâs sleep in weeks, and youâre going to need your strength if you expect to get through tonightâs festivities.â
âA bath?â