too.â
And she had put a rose on his coffin.
Later, when she was alone with her grandmother, she was told again to stop talking about seeing her grandfather.
âYou loved him, my girl. I know that. But you must stop saying youâve seen him, though I know you are only trying to ease my heart.â
âAm I hurting you, Gran?â she asked.
âNo, itâs not that.â
âThen what?â
Gran looked at her very seriously. âItâs dangerous. Very dangerous. So today youâve said goodbye. Never, ever think of him as speaking to youâ¦being near youâ¦again.â
âGranda would never hurt me.â
âNot Granda.â
âButââ
Gran was suddenly intense. âTo see Grandaâ¦you have opened a door. And God alone knows who else might pass through that door.â
Granâs words chilled her.
âGran, was Ana telling me the truth? No one thinks twelve is old enough to understand anything, but it is. Tell me, please, was a murderer buried today?â
Her grandmotherâs face went white. âNever speak of it, never speak that name in connection with your grandfather!â
âWhat name?â
âNever you mind. Itâs over. An awful time is over. And your grandfatherâ¦well, heâs in Godâs arms now. Where monsters go, I do not know.â
Gran kissed her then, and held her. ââTis all right, my girl, âtis all right. We have love. I have you, and I have your Mom, and my dear son and his ladsâ¦. âTis all right.â
Christie looked at her. She wanted to scream, because it wasnât all right. They were always trying to shelter her from the world, but surely it was better to understand the world than hide from it.
But here in her grandparentsââher grandmotherâs nowâhouse, everyone was too upset.
Too lost.
She didnât know why, and it made her afraid. Not afraid of Granda, but justâ¦
Afraid.
Afraid of the dead.
That night, she didnât sleep. She lay awake, praying silently in her soul that he wouldnât come.
And he didnât.
She had probably just been so upset that she was imagining things.
Granda, donât come again. Donât ever come again. If you love me at all, please, donât ever come again.
She told herself that all she felt was the whisper of a breeze, though there was none. A gentle touch, as ifâ¦
As if she had been heard and understood.
Her grandfather didnât appear.
In fact, she never saw him again, not even in dreams.
And as the years passed by, slowly, certainly, she forgot.
It had only been a dream, just as her mother had said.
She was able to believe that for nearly twelve years. And then one day she learned that her grandmotherâs words were true.
Seeing the deadâ¦
Was dangerous.
1
A n autopsy room always smelled like death, no matter how sterile it was.
And it was never dark, the way it was in so many movies. If anything, it was too bright. Everything about it rendered death matter-of-fact.
Facts, yes. It was the facts they were after. The victimâs voice was forever silenced, and only the eloquent, hushed cry of the body was left to help those who sought to catch a killer.
Jed Braden could never figure out how the medical examiner and the cops got so blasé about the place that they managed not only to eat but to wolf down their food in the autopsy room.
Not that he wasnât familiar enough with autopsy rooms himself. He was, in fact, far more acquainted with his current surroundings than he had ever wanted to be. But eating here? Not him.
This morning, it was doughnuts for the rest of them, but heâd even refused coffee. Heâd never passed out at an autopsy, even when heâd been a rookie in Homicide, and he didnât feel like starting now.
Even a fresh corpse smelled. The bodyâany bodyâreleased gases with death. And if it had taken a while for someone to