college we all believed she would be the one to go all the way with her art career. Now sheâs a freelance graphic designer who makes a killing when she works, but doesnât work very often. She drinks a little more than seems prudent, and doesnât make art anymore, and plays weird mind games with men. Whenever I call her she is either out of breath or slurping dashi. I imagine most of her days are spent running long distances on foot to ramen noodle shops.
Renee is insightful, to sum up Daniella so well even though they probably havenât been in the same room since my last birthday party. She has always had a gift for seeing people, knowing them through and through in an instant. As a result, she always knows just what to do, which way is up.
Which is why I ask her what she thinks I should do next about housing. If she canât take me in, maybe she has a better plan.
âI think you should sue, honestly,â she says casually, sipping her flat white.
âSue Mitchell?â My brain doesnât compute.
âDonât be ridiculous. Mitchell is the best thing that ever happened to you. I think you should sue your landlord.â
I roll my eyes. Renee is a divorce lawyerâshe thinks everyone should sue for something.
âIâm willing to bet your lease clearly states you have thirty days to leave the premisesâthatâs the law. But even beyond that, Iâm not sure she can boot you for being late with rent one time. So either youâre not telling me the truth about your payment history or sheâs evicting you illegally.â Renee recrosses her legs and checks her phone and then adds, âProbably itâs a little of both.â
I nod, though I was telling her the general truth. Iâve bounced a couple of rent checks over the decade Iâve lived thereâIâm a visual artist, for Godâs sakesâbut none in the last two years. Other than that, Iâve kept up to date. Itâs the first bill I set money aside for whenever I get a sale.
Still, itâs a moot point. âIâm not going to sue. You know that.â
Renee nods her head and rolls her eyes at me. âGood old Lily. Never one to put up a fight.â
I decide to take that as a compliment. âAny other ideas?â I ask her.
Renee pretends to think for a moment. âIf you ask me, and you just did, itâs time to get out of Chicago. No offense, but you canât afford it here. Not the way you live. I bet youâre in credit-card debt up to your ears, or you would have paid your rent with a card advance. Am I right?â
I bite my lip. She is a little right.
âAnd what good does it do you exactly to stay here? Your apartment sucks, your day jobs always suck, and now that youâve got a good relationship with a gallery you donât need to be here to schmooze with the art people anymore. Go live in the outer suburbs and see Mitchell on weekends.â
I am speechless. Stunned. Chicago is my home. Iâve never lived anywhere else.
I think Renee sees my face crumple up a bit, because she softens her tone and takes my hand across the table.
âLily. Honey. Youâre so talented. Your art sells well, and for a lot of money, for what it is. Go somewhere you can live on that and keep making your beautiful art. Meet new people. Get your feet under you. Be a grown-up, just a little.â
âBut all my friends are here,â I say. And I think, Really, Lily? Daniellaâs gone a year now. Kat, Corie, Risha, all married with children in the suburbs, their art careers waiting quietly off to one side while they live their other lives. Their real lives. And Renee, my best friend, actually telling me to go farther away from her than I already am.
âI know,â Renee says, nodding sympathetically. âItâs hard to make a change.â
âEspecially when you never wanted a change.â
Renee exhales. Puts her phone down.