to do what he doesâto balance some kind of business acumen with the tastes and whims of buyers and the egos and frailty of the artists. As a particularly frail artist myself, I donât know what I would do without him.
âSomething new is coming,â I lie. Then I remember why Iâm here. âHowever. Iâm having a little issue with my studio. It isnât helping the situation. I have a favor to ask.â
âHm?â Mitchell steps out from behind his desk at last. He towers over me at six foot something. My imaginary heels are starting to totter. âWait,â he says. âCome here. I forgot to give you something.â
For a moment I dare to hope heâs got some kind of check for me. Maybe I lost track of a quarterly payment? Forgot to cash something from months ago? But when I get closer he puts his arms around me, pulls me in for a quick peck, and then goes back for a real kiss that I feel up and down my spinal column like a cold wind off Lake Michigan. When he pulls back he shakes his head at me and says, âI can never get over the way you smell. Like cured acrylics and candy.â
âI need to stay with you for a week,â I blurt out. âIâm being evicted.â
Mitchell drops his hands from my arms. âHow can that be?â
I donât care to explain the whole situation. âItâs complicated. I, um, I have to be out in a week.â
âWellâ¦â He waits a long time. I can see the wheels turning as he goes shopping for an excuse. âOf course you can stay with me,â he says.
âReally?â I start. I was being too pessimistic. My heart sort of twists up, relief mixing with surprise mixing with something else ⦠maybe just a tiny shred of apprehension.
âAt some point. Of course,â he says. âNot now, though, Lily. Not when weâre working together professionally too. You know thatâs not good for us. Itâs too confusing. You painting, in my house, youâd have no privacy to work, Iâd have no perspective on your work, it would muddy the waters.â
âI know that. But itâs kind of ⦠almost ⦠an emergency,â I try.
Mitchell takes me by the waist and leads me to one of the armchairs that face his desk, sitting himself down and then pulling me to him. I feel like a child, even though I am thirtysomething. âLetâs table this discussion for later,â he says. âSomeday youâll be too big a star to keep down in my galaxy here.â He waves his arms to indicate the gallery spaces below. âThatâs when weâll talk about the next level between us. Now is the time for you to focus on your work.â
âBut I wonât have any place to work,â I say, feeling petulant.
âBut of course you will,â Mitchell says. âJust because Iâm not going to catch you every time you feel like you might be falling, that doesnât mean you canât catch yourself. And wonât you feel better when you do?â
I shrug. âI guess,â I try, wondering if heâs caught me mid-plummet lots of times and I just havenât noticed.
âYou will. I promise.â Mitchell brushes something off my face and presses his lips to my cheek. âI have to get back to work now, but listen, we can talk about this later, right? Maybe after this show this weekend. Itâs killing me. I canât focus on anything else. This artist is completely outside his own mind. But the works ⦠Itâs going to be spectacular if it doesnât fall completely to pieces.â He laughs. âI could say the same thing about you, Lily.â
He could, I think. But it would be nice if he didnât. âIâm not falling to pieces,â I say aloud. âOr if I am,â I add quietly, âitâs nothing new.â
Mitchell smiles at me as he takes his place back behind his desk, his