a few days, whatever pain the arm would occasionally give me disappeared and I was left with the constant itch the cast caused. I was shifting back and forth, somehow thinking this would relieve the irritation, while reading a particularly exciting passage in a mystery, when I heard our doorbell ring; and shortly after, the sound of Brianâs voice asking if he could see me.
I quickly put away the mystery (a literary snob even then) and looked around the room hurriedly to see if there were any other embarrassing items. Mom had cleaned it up, luckily, so I tried to look casual. Mom and he appeared at the door. âHello,â he said.
âIâll leave you two to your own devices,â my mother said. âUnless youâd like a snack or something.â
âNothing for me, Mrs. Cohen.â
I nearly forgot to answer my mother because I was so astonished by Brianâs competent refusal of her offer. âIâm okay, Ma.â
âHowâs the arm?â Brian asked.
I listened for my motherâs steps on the staircase before I answered. âItâs fine except that the cast makes my skin itch.â
He nodded and slowly walked around the room, looking carefully at the books. âItâs a nice room.â
I waited respectfully while Brian methodically checked the items in my room, picking up one of the books from my fatherâs Dickens set, and unselfconsciously reading a page. I was amazed by the concentration he brought to every act; and by his lack of worry about speaking to me. At last he settled on my bed and looked at me pleasantly. âYou seem kind of happy to have a cast and be sitting reading.â
âHow did you know I was reading?â
He laughed. âDonât tell me youâve been sitting in that chair doing nothing.â
âNo. But how did you know what I was doing?â
âThe TV is unplugged and tucked away under the bookshelves and there are a lot of books here. I figure thatâs what youâd be doing.â
âI was.â
âWere you reading him?â He pointed toward the Dickens set.
I nodded yes, unable to speak the lie.
âWhich one?â
âGreat Expectations.â
He smiled and said without any pause, âIâm sorry I broke your arm, but at least youâre getting an education out of it.â
It wasnât an apology in any real sense but his tone was appealing and I wasnât offended. âNot your fault.â
âI didnât intend it, but it was my fault.â Brian seemed almost annoyed at having to point out the distinction. âDanny said I did it because we were going to lose the game.â He laughed gladly at the thought.
âYou were killing us. If anything, you did us a favor. Iâm just sorry, because if I hadnât dropped that pass we would have made a first down.â
âBullshit. That was Dannyâs fault. He doesnât throw passes to be caught, he throws them to kill people.â
I had thought to show my maturity by admitting incompetence gracefully but my heart, by its quick jump to greet Brianâs words, belied my resignation. âIt was a perfect pass, wasnât it?â I asked.
âYeah, if youâre throwing to a professional football player against a superb defensive secondary. Dannyâs got a hundred-thousand-dollar arm and the brain of a two-year-old. He can throw that pass just as accurately at half the speed.â
I couldnât quite absorb his idea and I must have looked it. He leaned forward, his face intent. âDonât you get it?â he asked. âIt doesnât matter to Danny that no one except me can catch those passes. I think heâd be disappointed if you did. Look, Adam completes more passes than Dannyââ
âWhoâs Adam?â
âYou know, the kid who quarterbacked my team. Anyway, because Danny throws such good-looking passes, everybody thinks itâs the