Could I now? Come, you shall choose.â
âShe rose and opened the long door of a narrow cupboard, looking towards the card-players as she stooped. I remember the cakes to this day; little oval shortbreads stamped with a beehive, custards and mince-pies; and a great glass jar of goodies which I carried in both arms round the little square table. I took a mince-pie, and sat down on a footstool nearby Miss Grey, and she talked to me while she worked with slender hands at her lace embroidery. I told her how old I was; about my great-aunt and her three cats. I told her my dreams, and that I was very fond of Yorkshire pudding, âfrom under the meat, you knowâ. And I told her I thought my father the handsomest man I had ever seen.
ââWhat, handsomer than Mr Spencer?â she said laughing, looking along her needle.
âI answered that I did not very much like clergymen.
ââAnd why?â she said gravely.
ââBecause they do not talk like real,â I said.
âShe laughed very gaily. âDo men ever?â she said.
âAnd her voice was so quiet and so musical, her neck so graceful, I thought her a very beautiful lady, admiring especially her dark eyes when she smiled brightly and yet half sadly at me; I promised, moreover, that if she would meet me on the heath, I would show her the rabbit warren and the âMillerâs Poolâ.
ââWell, Jane, and what do you think of my son?â said my father when we were about to leave.
âShe bent over me and squeezed a lucky fourpenny-piece into my hand. âI love fourpence, pretty little fourpence, I love fourpence better than my life,â she whispered into my ear. âBut thatâs a secret,â she added, glancing up over her shoulder. She kissed lightly the top of my head. I was looking at my father while she was caressing me, and I fancied a faint sneer passed over his face. But when we had come out of the village on to the heath, in the bare keen night, as we walked along the path together between the gorse-bushes, now on turf, and now on stony ground, never before had he seemed so wonderful a companion. He told me little stories; he began a hundred, and finished none; yet with the stars above us, they seemed a string of beads all of bright colours. We stood still in the vast darkness, while he whistled that strangest of all old songs â âThe Song the Sirens Sangâ. He pilfered my wits and talked like my double. But when â how much too quickly, I thought with sinking heart â we were come to the house-gates, he suddenly fell silent, turned an instant, and stared far away over the windy heath.
ââHow weary, flat, stale â â he began, and broke off between uneasy laughter and a sigh. âListen to me, Nicholas,â he said, lifting my face to the starlight, âyou must grow up a man â a Man, you understand; no vapourings, no posings, no caprices; and above all, no sham. No sham. Itâs your one and only chance in this unfaltering Scheme.â He scanned my face long and closely. âYou have your motherâs eyes,â he said musingly. âAnd that,â he added under his breath, â thatâs no joke.â He pushed open the squealing gate and we went in.
âMy mother was sitting in a low chair before a dying and cheerless fire.
ââWell, Nick,â she said very suavely, âand how have you enjoyed your evening?â
âI stared at her without answer. âDid you play cards with the gentlemen; or did you turn over the music?â
ââI talked to Miss Grey,â I said.
ââReally,â said my mother, raising her eyebrows, âand who then is Miss Grey?â My father was smiling at us with sparkling eyes.
ââMr Greyâs sister,â I answered in a low voice.
ââNot his wife, then?â said my mother, glancing furtively at the fire. I looked towards