my legs out in useless errands in his service. And a word of praise sufficed her for many hours of difficulty. But by and by, when evening after evening was spent by my father away from home, she began to be uneasy and depressed; and though she made no complaint, her anxious face, the incessant interrogation of her eyes vexed and irritated him beyond measure.
ââWhere does my father go after dinner?â I asked Martha one night, when my mother was in my bedroom, folding my clothes.
ââHow dare you ask such a question?â said my mother, âand how dare you talk to the child about your masterâs comings and goings?â
ââBut where does he?â I repeated to Martha, when my mother was gone out of the room.
ââSsh now, Master Nicholas,â she answered, âdidnât you hear what your mamma said? Sheâs vexed, poor lady, at masterâs never spending a whole day at home, but nothing but them cards, cards, cards, every night at Mr Greyâs. Why, often itâs twelve and one in the morning when Iâve heard his foot on the gravel beneath the window. But there, Iâll be bound, she doesnât mean to speak unkindly. Itâs a terrible scourge is jealousy, Master Nicholas; and not generous or manly to give it cause. Mrs Ryder was kept a widow all along of jealousy, and but a week before her wedding with her second.â
ââBut why is mother jealous of my father playing cards?â
âMartha slipped my nightgown over my head. âSsh, Master Nicholas, little boys mustnât ask so many questions. And I hope when you are grown up to be a man, my dear, you will be a comfort to your mother. She needs it, poor soul, and sakes alive, just now of all times!â I looked inquisitively into Marthaâs face; but she screened my eyes with her hand; and instead of further questions, I said my prayers to her.
âA few days after this I was sitting with my mother in her parlour, holding her grey worsted for her to wind, when my father entered the room and bade me put on my hat and muffler. âHe is going to pay a call with me,â he explained curtly. As I went out of the room, I heard my motherâs question, âTo your friends at the Grange, I suppose?â
ââYou may suppose whatever you please,â he answered. I heard my mother rise to leave the room, but he called her back and the door was shut â¦
âThe room in which the card-players sat was very low-ceiled. A piano stood near the window, a rosewood table with a fine dark crimson workbasket upon it by the fireside, and some little distance away, a green card-table with candles burning. Mr Grey was a slim, elegant man, with a high, narrow forehead and long fingers. Major Aubrey was a short, red-faced, rather taciturn man. There was also a younger man with fair hair. They seemed to be on the best of terms together; and I helped to pack the cards and to pile the silver coins, sipping a glass of sherry with Mr Grey. My father said little, paying me no attention, but playing gravely with a very slight frown.
âAfter some little while the door opened, and a lady appeared. This was Mr Greyâs sister, Jane, I learned. She seated herself at her work-table, and drew me to her side.
ââWell, so this is Nicholas!â she said. âOr is it Nick?â
ââNicholas,â I said.
ââOf course,â she said, smiling, âand I like that too, much the best. How very kind of you to come to see me! It was to keep me company, you know, because I am very stupid at games, but I love talking. Do you?â
âI looked into her eyes, and knew we were friends. She smiled again, with open lips, and touched my mouth with her thimble. âNow, let me see, business first, and â me afterwards. You see I have three different kinds of cake, because, I thought, I cannot in the least tell which kind heâll like best.
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