enjoying
the movie my senses are going crazy with how much I want her. I
don’t trust myself to put my arm around her or kiss her during the
film because I know if I do I won’t be able to stop. I’ve no idea
how I control myself.
After the
movie has finished we head to the bar upstairs for a drink. We sink
into a private booth in the corner and I have to keep my hands on
my glass of Pepsi so I don’t do the things I’m longing to
do.
I start to ask
her about her training to distract myself and we chat about that
for a while. She tells me she’s got an interview at a bar tomorrow,
so she can maybe start her dance shows.
“ You’ll
totally impress them, you’re an amazing dancer,” I flirt and wink
at her.
We talk about
that and then I tell her all about the stuff that’s happened with
me at work. She seems so impressed that I risk my life to help
people.
When it gets
late, I reluctantly take her back home, wishing our night didn’t
have to end. It’s been the best date ever and I’ve never got on
with any other girl as much as I have with Starlet.
When we arrive
back at her flat, she thanks me politely for taking her
out.
“ It’s no prob.
It’s been great seeing you, Star,” I say and stroke her hair back
affectionately, my fingertips tingling with excitement.
She looks up
at me, meeting my gaze. I put my arms around her and hold her close
for a while. It feels so sexy feeling her body against mine and I’m
nervous about getting too excited over it.
We finally
part and I stare into her beautiful eyes, lost in them. My lips
ache to kiss hers and I’m dying to taste her on my
tongue.
However, I
remember that Carl is making me leave early tomorrow morning and
that I’ll be working away for a few days. How can I ask Starlet to
be my girlfriend and then just take off like that, expecting her to
wait around five or six days until I’m back? It isn’t fair on her
and it doesn’t seem the right time.
I stop myself
from kissing her and look away sadly. What if by then she’s found
someone else? I’ll never forgive Carl if he makes me lose my chance
with her.
“ Star,” I say,
deciding I’ll have to confess about it. “I’ve gotta go away
tomorrow for a mission. I’ll be staying somewhere else for a few
days so I won’t be around for a while.”
I see sadness
in her eyes at the thought of me going away and I just want to hold
her again and promise I’ll never leave.
Instead I
promise I’ll text her while I’m away and that I’d like to take her
out for a second date, if she wants to and if she’s still free
then. She happily agrees and I feel a little reassured.
“ I guess
you’ll be busy training tomorrow morning, so I’ll see you when I
get back.”
“ Okay.”
I don’t know
how to say goodbye to her. I want to kiss her or hold her in my
arms for a long time; but instead I just say, “Later, Star,” giving
her a wink before I go.
Chapter
4
I send a text
message to Starlet the next morning before I set off:
Hey Star,
how’s trainin going? xxx
I’m pretty
busy for most of the day but I manage to check my mobile in the
afternoon and see that she’s replied back:
Ok I guess. I
gt covered in flour wen I didnt get the bomb deactivation rite and
I really cant do computer hacking yt. Hows the mission going?
xxx
I smile,
thinking the flour accident is pretty funny and type a reply
back:
LOL u wil get
there wiv practice and I guess I cud help u out wiv the computer
hackin Im pretty gud at that. Its goin ok thanx. Cant wait 2 get
bak xxx
It’s only late
at night when I’m going to bed that I check my phone again and read
a new message from her:
Interview went
great! Im starting a dance show Saturday nite! xxx
I grin, feeling
so happy for her and reply back:
Awesome! Well
done Star. Cant wait to watch it ;-) What time do u go on?
xxx
She replies
back straight away:
8pm. Wil u b
back then? Xxx
I text
back: I promise I wil
The week seems
to drag