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can’t give you what you want. Let me go.”
    I still didn’t respond. I got up, collected my things, and prepared to leave as tears fell continuously from my eyes.
    “Jasmine,” he called out, “please stop crying and talk to me. Don’t leave it like this. I hate to see you cry because of me, baby. Just say something, please. I need to know you are okay with all of this.” He grabbed me by the arm to stop me, but I turned around and slapped the shit out of him.
                  He looked at me, stunned, but he knew that he deserved that shit. I looked at him with hurt, hate, and anger. After I hit him he knew he needed to back up, and get the hell out of my face. So he stepped back and gave me my space to walk away.
    Before I walked out, I looked over my shoulder and said “You really don’t have shit else to say to me. I hate you! I regret the day I met you, Trey! That’s how I feel about all of this, and that is how I feel about you. No I am not ok! Would you be ok if someone did some shit like this to you? I would have never imagined that the Trey I fell in love with would turn into the person I’m looking at right now. I don’t even know who you are. Before we first said we loved each other, you promised me you wouldn’t hurt me, Trey, but you lied! You’re a damn good liar! You used me! You did exactly what you promised you would never do. But you didn’t just hurt me; you broke me.”
    I left it at that as I grabbed my bags and walked out of the door. I was in such a rush to get away, I didn’t even realize my gold name plate necklace, which means the world to me, fell off my neck. It was a gift for my 16 th birthday from my grandfather who had passed away a couple years ago. As I walked out he picked up the necklace, and was about to give it back to me. I guess he decided against it and just let me go. As I got outside I realized I was in this big ass city with nowhere to go. But I didn’t care as long as wherever I was going was far away from here. I glanced back to see if he was even going to try and come after me, but that was wishful thinking on my part. So I started walking until I could hail down a cab. I wanted to get a flight out of here as soon as possible. As soon as I got into the cab I told him to take me to the airport. As he drove off I never felt so alone in my life.
                  I was able to bump my flight up, and get a flight out tonight. After about 4 hours of waiting I finally boarded a plane home. As soon as I sat down on the plane all I did was cry. I cried so much my eyes became swollen, and it burned every time a tear formed. A woman sitting across from me looked at me with so much concern. She looked like it took everything in her not to come over and console me. I knew she could see the pain I was feeling. Never in my life have I felt so much pain in my heart. Not only did I let go of someone who I loved, but now I had his unborn child growing inside of me. At this point I had no idea what I was going to do. It felt like my world was crashing down all around me, and I had no way to shield and protect myself. All I could do was let it all fall in hopes it didn’t crush me in the process. If I couldn’t trust a man who I’ve known for years, how in the hell can I trust any other man who tries to tell me he loves me. I didn’t want to be this girl, but I felt like I might never really trust again. Before the doors of the plane closed I looked down at my phone. I saw I had a message from Trey. It said “I’m really sorry, Jasmine, and I really do love you. I hope one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me. But it really is for the best we are apart.”
    I typed a message back saying “You don’t love anybody but yourself. Act like you never knew me, Trey, because as of today you don’t exist to me.” After I sent the message, I turned my phone off completely. It took this hard ass blow to my face for me to realize that maybe this was