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dismiss me like I ain’t shit! Even after all these years you can’t show me more respect than that, Trey? You knew what you wanted for a very long time, Trey, but you wait until now to say all of this to me. This couldn’t have come at a worse time. What am I going to do now?”
    He looked confused trying to understand what I meant. He said “What are you talking about, Jasmine? What do you mean what are you going to do now. You need to let me go, and move the fuck on with your life. Cut that whiny needy shit out man! You are way to grown for this. You out here looking desperate as fuck, and the shit is disgusting to me!”
    As he said this I swear I heard my heart shattering into a million pieces. I felt as if I couldn’t breathe and the room seemed like it was getting smaller by the second. I could feel myself getting so upset that I was getting nauseous and dizzy. I tried my best to calm myself down before I got too upset, and passed the hell out. The real reason I was excited to come here was to finally tell him I was five weeks pregnant with our child. This definitely was not in the plans for how this weekend was supposed to go. But as crazy as it sounds I wasn’t surprised by any of this either. All the signs have been there all along, but I chose to ignore all of them. This is exactly what I get for being so foolish. My mom always told me to trust my instincts, and with Trey I ignored them all!
                  I wanted to tell him I was pregnant, but after hearing what he had just said, I couldn’t even get the words to leave my mouth. I’ve been keeping this pregnancy a secret from everyone, even my best friend. I never keep secrets from London. I guess I was afraid of what type of reaction I would get from everyone knowing what the situation was between him and me. I really didn’t want to be known as someone’s baby mother. I wanted to be his wife, and start a family with him. What I wanted right now was for him to take me into his arms, and tell me everything was going to be ok. I needed for him to tell me he would be there for me. If I spoke up now he would only think I got pregnant, or was telling him I was pregnant, in an attempt to keep him around. And the last thing I wanted was to feel like my child was resented by its father, or for the father of my child to resent me. So I decided he would never know. I had heard so many different times how much he didn’t want kids right now. The crazy part was we didn’t use condoms all the time. He sometimes got lazy and didn’t want to pull out. He thought I would take the Plan B pill every time, and it would solve it. He didn’t care to notice that it made me sick to my stomach every single time I took it. I bet he didn’t even care what the long term effects of taking it would have on my body when I wanted to have kids. His only concern was himself.
    I knew the exact day that I got pregnant. It was when he came back home to visit. We didn’t use a condom that night. I told him to put a condom on because I wasn’t taking the plan b pill anymore. He whispered in my ear telling me to trust him, and how much he loved me. So I trusted him and now I’m left in a really fucked up situation. I couldn’t stand being here any longer. Even though it hurt like hell to finally hear where I stood with him, I guess it was what I needed to hear. All the bullshit with Trey has become all too familiar to me now. I wanted it all to be over. I blocked out anything else he was trying to say to me. He had already said enough.
    He interrupted my thoughts as he said “I’m sorry to be so harsh with you Jasmine. Please try to understand where I’m coming from. It’s frustrating as hell to see you like this. This girl really ain’t you, Jas. I know you want to be with me, but right now I need to focus on my future. I know the longer you hold onto me the more I’m going to keep breaking your heart and disappointing you. It’s best we end this thing now. I