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slowly, as if the winter made her bones ache, and came to stand beside my bed.
    “I don’t want to live like an old man.”
    She pursed her lips. “Sooner or later you will have to. At least, I so wish that you will survive that many years. I am old, and so is my brother King Eyod. We do not find it so great a burden.”
    “I should not mind an old man’s body if the years had earned it for me. But I can’t go on like this.”
    She shook her head, puzzled. “Of course you can. Healing is tedious sometimes, but to say that you cannot go on … I do not understand. It is, perhaps, a difference in our languages?”
    I took a breath to speak, but at that moment Burrich came in. “Awake? Feeling better?”
    “Awake. Not feeling better,” I grumbled. Even to myself, I sounded like a fretful child. Burrich and Jonqui exchangedglances over me. She came to the bedside, patted my shoulder, and then left the room silently. Their obvious tolerance was galling, and my impotent anger rose like a tide. “Why can’t you heal me?” I demanded of Burrich.
    He was taken aback by the accusation in my question. “It’s not that simple,” he began.
    “Why not?” I hauled myself up straight in the bed. “I’ve seen you cure all manner of ailments in beasts. Sickness, broken bones, worms, mange … you’re stablemaster, and I’ve seen you treat them all. Why can’t you cure me?”
    “You’re not a dog, Fitz,” Burrich said quietly. “It’s simpler with a beast, when it’s seriously ill. I’ve taken drastic measures, sometimes, telling myself, well, if the animal dies, at least it’s not suffering anymore, and this may heal it. I can’t do that with you. You’re not a beast.”
    “That’s no answer! Half the time the guards come to you instead of the healer. You took the head of an arrow out of Den. You laid his whole arm open to do it! When the healer said that Greydin’s foot was too infected and she’d have to lose it, she came to you, and you saved it. And all the time the healer was saying the infection would spread and she’d die and it would be your fault.”
    Burrich folded his lips, quelling his temper. If I’d been healthy, I’d have been wary of his wrath. But his restraint with me during my convalescence had made me bold. When he spoke, his voice was quiet and controlled. “Those were risky healings, yes. But the folk who wanted them done knew the risks. And,” he said, raising his voice to cover the objection I’d been about to utter, “they were simple things. I knew the cause. Take out the arrowhead and haft from his arm and clean it up. Poultice and draw the infection from Greydin’s foot. But your sickness isn’t that simple. Neither Jonqui nor I really know what’s wrong with you. Is it the aftermath of the poison Kettricken fed you when she thought you had come to kill her brother? Is this the effects of the poisoned wine that Regal arranged for you? Or is it from the beating you took afterward? From being near drowned? Or did all those things combine to do this to you? We don’t know, and so we don’t know how to cure you. We just don’t know.”
    His voice clenched on his last words, and I suddenly saw how his sympathy for me overlay his frustration. He paced a few steps, then halted to stare into the fire. “We’ve talked long about it. Jonqui has much in her Mountain lore that I have never heard of before. And I’ve told her of cures I know. But we both agreed the best thing to do was give you time to heal. You’re in no danger of dying that we can see. Possibly, in time, your own body can cast out the last vestiges of the poison, or heal whatever damage was done inside you.”
    “Or,” I added quietly, “it’s possible that I’ll be this way the rest of my life. That the poison or the beating damaged something permanently. Damn Regal, to kick me like that when I was trussed already.”
    Burrich stood as if turned to ice. Then he sagged into the chair in the shadows.