everybody! We scream till weâre blue! See? That wasnât hard.
DAY I DONâT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE Metamorphosis. We watched a movie about it in science. Itâs when a caterpillar snuggles up in a chrysalis like a backward mummy. Instead of dying and being wrapped up, it wraps itself up to live. To become something new, something with freedom. Something pretty. Unless itâs a moth. A moth still has freedom, but itâs Ugly Gross Brown Dusty. Itâs just a dirty moth. In that case, metamorphosis is kind of sad. Little caterpillar wraps itself up like a kid in elementary school going to sleep and waking up a pizza-faced middle school weirdo. Robin is changing, growing wings every day in a chrysalis made of my notebook. A revenge chrysalis. (Which would be a good name for a band.) If I squint, I can see his Ugly Gross Dusty Dirty moth wings. His pizza face. His pale eyes glowing with greed at the laughs he gets at my expense that Mrs. Smithson ignores. Just like fake moth eyes on ugly wings Robinâs eyes better be hiding his true selfâ that he is still scared of me. Because he should be.
WEEKEND Dad asked what was going on. But he meant it like, Hey, bro! Whatâs going on? Like a dude punching another dudeâs shoulder at the beach. So I said: Nothing Because thatâs what he wanted me to say.
If I am made of stone at home no one can bother me. If I am made of stone at school no one can bother me. Paul says even stones have to crack to let out steam. But what he doesnât understand is that there is always someone who wants to stick their head in a crack and sniff around. Hahaha. But seriously. Paul is so annoying.
DAY 30-something Hartwick was looking at me from his office across the hall. I wanted to say You canât look at me like that . I wanted to say Hide those beady eyes back under your greasy lids . I wanted to say Go away . But I didnât say anything because the nurse was putting antiseptic on my lip where it busted open after I fell on it in the hallway when Robin tripped me and said Poetry boy canât write sentences or walk, either . And Giant John laughed.
Itâs a shame, really, how Mrs. Smithson ignores Robin as he seeks revenge. She is depriving him of the ceiling stain of Hartwickâs tie-nightmare-of-the-day of the SHOUTING ABOUT RESPONSIBILITY. The moth-faced boy flies free. Again.
My heartbeat in my lip. Mom pinched her face up tight. She made sure I didnât need stitches. Philip high-fived me when I said You shouldâve seen the other guy . Petey just rolled his eyes and Paul sighed real big. But there was no other guy. Unless you count Robin looking innocent as Mrs. Smithson and Harry bobbled by.
Robin says itâs time for another Poetry Bandit thing. I told him to go rip out a page from the library. He said no, that I should do it. Blackmail stinks. (Another good band name.)
I put it up before I gave it to Robin. I think he grew three inches just from being mad. He wanted to get âcaughtâ putting it up, by me. I told him to go sign his name if he wants all the credit. But someone had already thrown it away. The teachers, they learn fast.
TUESDAY Mrs. Little looks at me sideways. I know she wants to say something but I donât want to listen so I pretend I donât see her eyes in the corner of her face like a hieroglyph.
Itâs not like I never had a fat lip. Thatâs what I want to say to her hieroglyph eye. Every time I look up and see her she is staring. And she doesnât look away. Itâs like she wants me to see. Sheâs looking, searching, telling me something that I canât hear. Just like my lip keeps a beat to a song I canât hear.
Iâm glad for the books today, heavy in my hands. They go on the shelves, one after the other. I donât