has just walked away from me, I have to stand by my principles.
I put one foot in front of the other as my strength begins to waver. I will not allow Frank to see any weakness. He thrives on it and I don’t want him to have the satisfaction of knowing I’m on the verge of breaking down.
“Piper, if you walk out the door you will not be asked back,” he states, coldly.
I take a deep breath and twist the door handle that leads to the hall and the next phase of my life while praying to God I am not making the wrong decision. Closing my eyes and summoning all the strength I can find, I open the door and walk away from the person who gave me the first opportunity of my brand new career.
Once the door closes behind me, the sickness in my stomach begins to grow and I have to physically keep myself from vomiting. I can’t believe I just left my job for something as questionable as my relationship with Fent. Actually, I don’t even know if I have a relationship with him. Oh God, what if I’ve done all this for nothing? I want to run back out there and tell Frank I want to keep my job. But is that really what I want? Can I really live with myself if I continue to work side by side with Frank? I don’t think I can and that’s why I’m leaving.
After mentally talking myself off the edge, I run down the stairs and through the lobby, hoping I can get out of here without anyone stopping me. Even though I believe in what I am doing, if someone stops me, I know I will break down.
“Piper?” Jane calls from behind her desk. I can’t look at her as I need to get out of here. She has always been so nice to me but I need to be out of this building
I slow my run to a brisk walk once I hit the sidewalk. It’s full of people so I keep my head down. I don’t want looks of pity when they notice my tear strained face. Now I understand what Fent meant when he mentioned not needing pity from anyone.
I make it to my car and as I’m pulling out of the garage, I’m not sure where I need to be going. Will he go back to his comfort zone? Will he go to his bar? I decide he will probably want to drown his sorrows after the hell he has just gone through, so I drive in the direction of the bar.
After driving a few minutes, I decide I need to let my sister know what’s going on, just in case something happens.
“Hello?” Phoebe answers, after a few rings.
“Hey,” I say, trying and failing to be nonchalant.
“What’s wrong, Piper?”
“Fent just went crazy on the roof of James, Phebes. I’m going to find him now but I’m worried about him. He wasn’t in the best state of mind so who knows what he may do. There is a reason why he is so deep but I will have to tell you about it later. I wanted to let you know where I am just in case something happens.”
“Seriously, Piper? That is how you are going to leave it?”
“I’m sorry, Phoebe. I know I need to explain and I will as soon as I can. I just have to find Fent and sort everything out.”
“Ok Piper, but be careful.”
“I will, Phoebe. Talk to you later.”
The phone disconnects as I’m parking along the side of the road in the District. This place looks much different during the day. It’s desolate, which is also a representation of how my Fent feels. I sure hope he isn’t here. The feeling of self pity is thick and if he’s here, there is no way he can bring himself out of the depression he no doubt feels.
I scan the street but don’t see his bike anywhere. That doesn’t necessarily mean anything, though. He could have parked in the back. After gingerly walking to the door and losing some of the adrenaline from earlier, I try to pull it open and nearly pull my arm out of socket. I stare in the window confused. I guess I hadn’t considered the bar wouldn’t be open. After releasing a long sigh, I back up against the wall, slide down and put my head in my hands. The stress of the day and the crash of adrenaline are finally catching up with me. I let the
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