teacherâs code thing where Iâm supposed to give you âmoralâ advice.â He glances at his watch. âBut itâs too close to P-8 and too close to my retirement for that. Look, I donât know the circumstances under which you committed this heinous act, and Iâll thank you to keep it that way, but Iâm rushing headlong into the age of mandatory Medicare. I went on my first date at age nine, took Amy Velar to the Shrine Circus. I knew more about male-female interaction then .â
âYouâre gonna have to do better than that if you want to be my guru,â Paulie says.
âIf I were your guru, Iâd have to share responsibility for the crazy shit you do. I have enough crazy shit of my own, thank you.â
Paulie runs his hands through his hair, his gaze drifting to the ceiling.
âKidding aside,â Logs says. âThereâs not a good reason to lie to people we care about. And we should honor our commitments. In a perfect world, right? Iâm assuming you and Hannah were exclusive.â
Paulie nods.
âSo if you had come to me beforehand I probably should have told you to tell her, but I probably would have asked if you thought it might happen again or if you believed you could reign in those impulses from now on.â He grimaces. âItâs likely I would have told you to give yourself another chance. Most guys would.â
Paulie looks at his lap. âYeah, well, âmost guysâ are exactly who I donât want to be.â
ââMost guysâ too ethically flexible for you?â
âI donât care what anyone else does, itâs none of my business. I mean, itâs all bullshit. I donât let my peers judge me, and I ainât ending up like my old man.â
The bell rings; they walk to the door and watch the halls fill. âGot about five minutes before Period 8,â Logs says . âYou wanna grab something out of the lunchroom?â
âIâd like to grab Hannah out of the lunchroom.â Paulie pats his stomach, shakes his head. âNot hungry.â
âIf weâre getting into open water youâll need to eat whether youâre hungry or not.â
âGimme a day,â Paulie says.
Logs grabs a brown paper bag from his top desk drawer and removes a small plastic container of green salad with ranch and four very small hard-salami-and-cheese-on-rye sandwiches. He extends one of the sandwiches toward Paulie. âTake it,â he says. âFor me.â
Paulie laughs, grabs the sandwich, and halves it in one bite. âI mean it. I donât want to be my dad,â he says. âAt least not in that way. An affair about every year and a half, caught every time. Three weeks in an apartment or a motel, then back. Mom all hurt and shit but scared to lose him.â
âI guess your folks are better parents than mates,â Logs says. âNot good, but not all bad, either.â
The first of the Period 8 kids saunter in, and Paulie clams up. Heâs been with some of these kids in P-8 for four years, and theyâve been through some intense discussions. Paulie is famous for making raw disclosures, but he does not feel like airing his shit with Hannah in this room. Not yet.
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âH ey, Tak,â Arney Stack says as he rushes into Period 8, removing his jacket. âHeard you got taken out in the semis.â
âMr. Stack,â Logs says. âMissed you in class this morning.â
âStudent council meeting,â Arney says. âDidnât you get the memo from the office?â
Logs nods. He doesnât read office memos. Arney knows that.
Josh Takeuchi opens his lunch sack, which contains the first real lunch heâs had since he started dropping weight at the beginning of wrestling season. âYeah,â he says, opening a ziplock bag containing three baloney sandwiches and two Snickers bars. âI got taken out in the