at Sequester told me I might be fontani, I was sure thereâd been a mistake somewhere. Fontani are supposed to be the best of the best, and Iâm about as close to average as you can get. But they were right. I thought Iâd feel different after I shaded that first time, like maybe Iâd just
know
what to do, but I didnât, and I still donât. At night sometimes when I canât sleep, Iâll get up and look at myself in the mirror, to see if thereâs any proof Iâve really changed, but itâs always the same me.
All of a sudden, itâs like I canât breathe, like the air has turned to rock. My heart feels like itâs rolling full speed down a hill, bumping all the way, and I get the serious feeling that Iâm about to throw up.
I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and try to summon up that big green sunny field the way Charles, my special-sessions instructor, taught me. I see the grass spreading out all around, but this time thereâs no sun anywhere. The sky is deep gray, almost black, and itâs raining balls of slush like icy spit. The grass begins to wilt and turn brown, and suddenly there are bare patches everywhere, and Iâm sinking into the cold mud, first to my ankles, then my knees . . .
I snap my eyes open and scramble off the fountain, determined not to leave a pile of throwup beneath the Seat of the Champion. Once Iâm up and sure Iâm back in Ninth City, I feel a bit better but still not good. I hobble around the edge of the Forum, totally out of breath, passing the buildings that make up the four sides of the plaza one by one: the Academy, the Basilica of the Legion, the Praetorium, the Hall of the Principate.
Iâm on my third lap and still feeling like Iâm three Ks into the worst five-K of all time when I hear something strange echoing down one of the tall passageways that run through the Hall of the Principateâpretty much the most unlikely sound in the world: laughter. Not even thinking about why, I follow the sound through the passage to the opposite side of the building, out onto a wide terrace. Ninth City spreads out below, Old Town, with its spiraling streets, the serious-looking stone towers of the newer districts, the battle spires rising like claws, and the hulking City Gunsâhuge cannons the size of buildings, some over two hundred meters tall. Charles calls them âliteral skyscrapers.â
At first I think the laughter must have been some trick of the wind, then I see them: legionaries, three of them, two men and a woman. For a couple of seconds, I just stare, trying to figure out what theyâre doing here. They should be at their posts, getting ready to fight. And then I see the insignia on their collars, the peaked symbol marking them as Officers Aspirant from the School of Philosophy. Theyâre younger than I thought, maybe around Rhetor Danyeeâs age, which I guess makes sense because sheâs an OA, too. But that still doesnât explain why theyâre
here
.
âYouâre supposed to be at the shelters.â I just blurt it out. All three turn to look at me, clearly taken by surprise.
The first to recover himself is one of the boys, the tallest of the three,lanky, with dark skin and a lean, handsome face. He has dark hair, longer than male cadets usually choose to wear it. âWell, look who it is,â he says, showing off an easy smile. âFontanus Jaxten. Seat of the Champion a little soggy for you?â
âYou were supposed to go to the shelters,â I repeat, sounding idiotic. Itâs only after Iâve opened my mouth that I think how close he was to the truth.
The other boy is tall, too, and kind of bronze-colored all over, with muscles that seem to bulge straight through his uniform. âJaxten, really?â he asks, adjusting a pair of silver-rimmed glasses like heâs trying to bring me into focus. âFantastic. Get over here, champ.