ruling this a suicide.â
I stiffened. âSuicide? No. No way! Everything was just fine when I visited her Thursday. . . .â I ran my hand over my face to swab off the sorrow left trailing down my cheeks. âI donât believe for one minute Mama took her life!â
Daddy shook his head and studied his secretary as she crossed the street toward his courthouse office. âMe neither, baby.â Weary, he pulled himself up. âIâm so glad you got to see her yesterday. . . . Right now Iâm fixinâ to head on over to Ellaâs to talk with the sheriff and the coroner. Iâll take you on home first.â
I stood to face him. âNo, I have to see her. Iâm going with you.â I planted my feet firmly in front of his.
He cleared his throat, ready to lend argument and put his foot down with me.
I crossed my arms. âIâm old enough to go with you. Iâm seventeen nowâan adult.â
Daddy cocked his head and shoved his hands deep inside his pockets. âYou sure âbout this?â
My throat locked up, forcing out a croaked, âYes.â With a shaky hand, I grabbed the back of Liarâs Bench, leaving one more lie to soak in and feed.
2
The Better Liar
B y the time we reached Mamaâs, I was having second thoughts. Despite it being one of the hottest days of the year in Kentucky, a cold shiver slid over my body. I peered upward to distance myself from the crime scene before me and watched the choreographed movements of a flock of birds veer, then turn in an unpredictable fashion, erratically stippling the summer skies. Their puzzling flight was punctuated by the intermittent cries coming from inside my mamaâs house, those of my seven-month-old baby half sister, Genevieve.
Daddy flexed his jaw and I saw his soft gray eyes darken to cavern-cold. âDaddy . . . Mama wouldnât kill herself. And that one trooper said she did it in front of baby Genevieve. . . .â
âShush, baby.â He squinted his eyes to keep out the broiling sun, intent on the exchange of conversation nearby.
We watched Sheriff Allen, aptly nicknamed âJingles.â It was a well-known Peckinpaw fact that you could hear him coming long before you saw the glint of his spit-polished gold badge.
Jingles unsnapped his official oversized jail key ring from his utility belt and pulled off another ring that held his rabbitâs foot, a metal horse-head bottle opener from the Dixie Brewing company, and his lucky Indian head penny, then ducked into his car to place a set of keys in the ignition. He grabbed his clipboard and jingled his way back and forth across my mamaâs front yard, pausing to talk to the different officials scattered around. He stopped a few feet from us and tapped his clipboardâs pages with a pen.
The sheriff sneaked a peek at me, then shuffled a little farther away so that he was partially hidden behind a police cruiser. But not far enough away that I couldnât hear.
I listened in horror as Jingles explained to the state trooper standing beside him. âIâm not gonna call it yet, Herb.... And nobodyâs gonna put much stock in the neighborâs statement, him being touched and all.... Hell, it does look suspicious, what with how many times Ella showed up for her shift wearing sunglasses to hide Whitlockâs marks.â
âAnd with him stoned out of his mind on LSD and God-knows-what-else, he couldâve done this,â the state trooper chimed in. âAnd then thereâs her suitcaseâout and half-filled. Looks to me like she had enough of living with him, not just in simply living.â
Suitcase? I tried to remember if Iâd seen one when I was visiting her yesterday.
Jingles shook his head. As his voice softened, his words slowed and slid easily away. âSome days that gal would jusâ sit at that desk of hers anâ refuse to take off those sunglasses, all the whiles,