only one of us can have her. Only one of us deserves her.
I drop my gaze and let Aisha pull me into the house. The overpowering smell of smoke and booze hits my nose. Good thing Drewâs parents arenât back from Mexico until Saturday. Itâll take days to clear the air.
âWanna dance?â Aisha slurs. Sheâs all over me, like hot wax on a car. Hannah hasnât noticed. Sheâs still focused on Cole.
âIn a minute.â I survey the crush of bodies, looking for Blair. I need to talk to him about his front end. Convince him Rayâs the guy to do the job.
âOh, come on!â Aisha tugs on my arm, and my stomach flips. Her perfume smells like rancid cookies.
I ease out of her grip. âHave you seen Blair?â
She pouts and gestures beyond the archway to the dining room. I spot a bunch of guys grouped around an oval table, doing shooters. âHeâs back there with Drew and the rest of them.â
âIâll catch you later.â Careful not to go anywhere near Hannah and Cole, I weave through the dancing bodies toward the dining room.
âShields!â Drew bellows when he catches sight of me. Heâs holding a bottle of tequila in one hand, a shot glass in the other. Heâs surrounded by half a dozen guys, including Blair and Lucas. Lucas was supposed to bring his Civic into the shop for transmission work. Good. I can hit them both up at once.
âWhere were you? I expected you hours ago.â
Of course he did. I used to be the first to arrive and the last to leave. âI was at the shop working on an engine.â I direct my words to Blair, but he and Lucas are laughing hysterically about an episode of South Park and arenât paying attention.
Drew shoves a glass at me. âHere.â He gestures to the lime wedges and saucer of salt on the table. Theyâre surrounded by beer, vodka, mix and chips. âGet set up,â he adds. âWeâre celebrating.â
âYeah? Thanksgiving was last week. Whatâs the occasion?â
Iâm stalling. Donât get me wrong, I like tequila. A lot. Itâs a great way to kill pain. I glance over my shoulder, glimpse the back of Coleâs head. It helps me shut out what everybody else is feeling too. I need that. Sometimes a lot. But drinking tequila makes me stupid. My gaze settles on Hannah. And she hates it.
âIâve done my admissions applications,â Drew says when I turn around. âThree suckers all filled out.â He belches. The stench of beer and tequila makes me reel backward.
âOnly three?â Geoff skips the salt and goes straight for the tequila. âMy old man made me do five. Plus apply for a pile of scholarships.â He downs his shot.
I donât want to talk about college admissions and sats and scholarships. It reminds me of Mom and the mess weâre in. The mess I created.
âHere, man.â Drew rubs lime on a shot glass, dips it in salt, tops it with tequila. âDrink up.â He presses the glass into my hand.
âIâd rather have a beer.â I can nurse a beer all night, drive home without worrying.
Blair snaps to attention. âIâll take your tequila then.â He plucks the glass from my hand.
I grab a Bud and pop the tab but donât drink it. âI thought you were coming in to get your front end done?â
âChange of plans.â Blair flips a chunk of his too-long red hair out of his eyes. âThereâs this guy my brother knows. With a tricked-out Lancer. He has an awesome mechanic up in Everett who does all sorts of neat crapââ
âLike Ray,â I interrupt.
âExactly.â He grins, completely misses my point. âIâm thinking about getting him to do my front end.â
âYouâd drive forty miles to get your front end done?â Of course he would. I drove almost two hundred miles once just for a special set of rims.
Blair nods.
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