might take my trannie to him too,â Lucas adds.
My breath catches. No way. A trannie jobâs worth a few thousand to me. He has to bring it to Ray. âDonât be crazy. Rayâs it when it comes to trannie work. Heâll do whatever you want. You know that.â
âYeah, but apparently the mechanic in Everett is something else.â Lucas shakes his head. âThat Lancer can really go.â
âMy Acura really goes too. Rayâs done a crapload of work on it.â
âHow would we know?â Lucas laughs. âYou havenât raced it in a year.â
Blair pours another shot. âThatâs because Shields thinks heâs jinxed.â
I suck back some beer. Not jinxed. Just not stupid anymore.
âQuit being a wuss,â Lucas says. âCome out and show us what you can do.â
Wuss . I hate that word.
Drew scowls. âLeave him alone.â
Drewâs the only guy I know without a car. He borrows his dadâs pickup sometimes, but mostly heâs without wheels. Thatâs why he holds so many parties. If he didnât, heâd be a total loser.
âThereâs a race tomorrow night,â Blair says. âThe Lancerâll be there. Iâll text you the details.â
Iâm about to remind him that Iâm not racing anymore when I feel that tiny prickle at the back of my neck again. Like someone is watching me. I glance over my shoulder and see short blond hair and Loganâs St. Christopher medallion.
Hannah. Sheâs thinking of Logan.
I can tell by the twist of pain on her face. For once, Iâm not. Iâm thinking only of her. How it felt when she touched my sore leg in the hospital. How it made me feel things I have no right to feel.
âWhatdaya say, Shields?â Blair presses.
I open my mouth to answer, but Aisha interrupts. âThere you are!â She plants a wet, sloppy kiss on my cheek. âCome on. I love this song.â She plucks the beer from my hand, slams it on the table beside a bag of ripple chips and presses against me. âLetâs dance.â
A flush fills my cheeks. Hannahâs eyes widen. Coleâs eyes are trained on Aishaâs breasts, which are practically spilling out of her tank top.
âShields?â Blair yells. âYou havenât answered. Tomorrow night? You coming or not?â
Hannahâs gaze burns. She wants me to say no. She expects me to say no. But I need to go to the race. I need that Lancer to lose. I need the guys to bring their cars to Ray. âIâm coming,â I say as Aisha leads me away. âBut I wonât be racing.â
Laughter and a few good-natured insults follow us. They arenât as painful as the look of disappointment in Hannahâs eyes. She doesnât believe me. She thinks Iâm lying.
Sheâs wrong.
Chapter Four
Mom corners me a few hours later when I sneak in the front door.
âYouâre late.â
I peer across the hall into the living room. She and her boyfriend, Cam, are on the couch, framed by the glow from the yellow and orange Tiffany lamp.
âSorry.â I flip the dead bolt on the door and walk across the hall. âThere was a party at Drewâs. Didnât you get my message?â
âYes, but itâs a school night.â The circles under Momâs eyes look purple in the pale light. âAnd you have a curfew.â
âI drove some friends home. It took longer than I thought.â Mostly because I had to pull over twice so Aisha could throw up.
Cam gives me a silent salute. I nod back. Cam never says much, but he never criticizes either. Thatâs worth a lot.
âI worry, Tom. You know that.â
âYeah.â Guilt stings. âIâm sorry,â I repeat.
âMr. Lansky called. Heâs concerned about your performance in senior seminar.â
Oh man, I donât need Lansky on my case. Not when Iâm worrying about my car.
âSenior