Holding Onto You (Never Letting Go) Read Free

watching her walk away from me. I cleared my throat and felt the pain surging through my body. What was going to happen? Was it the end of our friendship? I looked up at the night sky and imagined myself grabbing Sophia and bringing her into my arms. In my mind, everything was perfect again. She was showing her beautiful and bright smile.
    Connor kept talking but I wasn’t listening. I saw his mouth moving but couldn’t hear the words. I was trying my damnedest not to lose it again. She was my only one and I wanted to be with her. How was I ever going to get her back?
    Fuck , pretty girl-I will find my way back to you. One day.
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    “Ugh,” I moaned. My head was on fire. I slowly opened my eyes and was in a familiar place. The soft leather chairs were cool to my skin. The large windows poured sunlight into the room. There were pictures of happy times all over. Pictures of beaches and the sunset. Family and friends. “Fuck.” I knew where I was.
    “How ya doing, killer?”
    I looked up and saw Sarah looking at me. Fuck. “Hey,” I say weakly. “Where’s Sophia?” Crap. What the fuck happened? Why am I here at Sophia’s?
    I hear d Sarah sigh. “She left an hour ago, babe.” Fuck again. “She, um, was a mess but she stayed here with you all night. She wanted to make sure you were okay.”
    I didn’t know how to respond. Sophia took care of me and I never got the chance to say goodbye.
    Sarah nudged my arm and laughed. “Hung over much?”
    I sat up on the couch and rubbed my face. I hesitated before answering Sarah. “What happened?”
    Sarah came over and sat next to me. She pulled her legs up and tucked them under her. Her mouth pursed into a smile as she looked at me. “I guess you got really drunk and Sophia found you in your car. You hit a tree. My dad is at the shop now getting it fixed. Don’t worry, your parents don’t know.”
    Why was this shit happening? “Sophia saved me?” Everything in me broke. She put aside her hate for me and saved my life. She was there for me when I was the one who left her in the dark. I was close to the edge and was about to go overboard. I felt myself falling into the darkness and I couldn’t breathe. Her face plagued my mind and guilt set in. I was selfish and didn’t think about how my actions would affect anyone. My chest tightened and glanced down at the floor. I winced when Sarah placed her hand on mine. I didn’t deserve any kindness or anyone helping me. I was in my own hell.
    Sarah nodded. “She brought you back here and made sure you were okay. ” Sarah paused, looking at me and stroking my hand. She let out an intense sigh. “You guys are idiots! Fucking Sophia’s been crying every night and screaming your name in her sleep. Dude, get your shit together!”
    I took the pillow behind my back and chucked it across the room. She was right. My pretty girl was hurting and there was nothing I could do. I dropped my arms to my side and couldn’t fight back the tears. “I can’t believe I did this.” I sobbed into my hands and Sarah took me in her arms.
    “Shhh, Adam. It’s going to be okay.” She rocked me back and forth while I sobbed into her chest. All the sadness was releasing from my body but it still felt as if there were a million pounds of guilt on my shoulders.
    After almost an hour of sobbing and feeling sorry for myself, Sarah looked at me and told me that I couldn’t give up. Not only couldn’t I give up but I couldn’t let Sophia go.
    Within a few minutes, Doctor Burns pulled in with my car. I got up from the couch and gave Sarah a hug. I took in a deep breath and walked outside with my hands in my pockets.
    “How are you feeling, son?” Doctor Burns shut my car door and walked towards me.
    “Fine. Thank you, sir. I do appreciate your help.” I felt nothing but embarrassment. Ever since Mrs. Burns died, the happiness in his eyes died too. He was always a happy and great man, but now he looked defeated and tired.
    I extended my