veered accordingly. There was a split second in which she saw Hunter trying to seize the Chevyâs steering wheel.
Then it all went out of control. The Chevy jackknifed with a roaring vengeance against the nose of the Volvo. Then it flipped, and rolled over and over in front of them. Josh pumped the brakes, but simple physics sent them flying into the body of the Chevy.
For a moment, Darcy felt the weightlessness of flight herself. An air bag suddenly exploded in her face. She felt a thud unlike anything she had ever known before, and the world suddenly turned to an absurd cartoon vision as stars in a field of black velvet swam before her eyes. Then, one by one, the stars twinkled out, and there was nothing but an ebony darkness.
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Ashes to ashes.
Dust to dust.
Darcy attended Joshâs funeral with blackened eyes and heavy bruises. They told her that it was only thanks to the integrity of Joshâs Volvo that she was still alive.
Mike wouldnât be buried for another two days. Somehow, again miraculously, Hunter had survived as well. Darcy thought that she must still be in shock, unable to really absorb what had happened because, as she stood by Joshâs grave site, supported on either side by her parents, she was able to look at Hunter. She could even think that, to his credit, heâd had the balls to come here, and that he was weeping like an infant.
The accident had been a wake-up call for the entire school, she thought, for those who had shunned Josh for years had come. He might well have been amused, she thought. But again, every face showed shock and sorrow. Those who had thought themselves young and immortal had discovered that life was fragile and death could come at any time. Who, in their realm of experience, had ever imagined that taunting a nerd could come to such a tragic end?
Joshâs father, grave, tall, ancient, and bowed, tenderly kissed the coffin, and laid a flower upon it. His grief seemed beyond tears, and still, when the last words of the priest had faded into the bizarre and beautiful blue beauty of the day, he came toward her. He managed a gentle smile, as if her pain could be as deep as his own, and reached for her hand. She took it, let him lead her to the coffin, where he offered her a flower to cast upon it.
It was a strange moment, for those who had attended seemed to want to come to him, to offer their condolences. Yet, he and Darcy stood in their own little world, and people hesitated, then let them be. Even Darcyâs parents, loving, kind people, allowed them that moment.
They stood in silence for the longest time. Oddly, Darcybecame aware of a bird chirping. At last, she found her voice. It was broken and trembling, but she managed the words she wanted. âIâm so sorry. So, so, sorry. IâIâm responsible. That canât help you any, I know,â she babbled. âBut he was my friend, truly, my best friend, always there, and oh, God, I didnât knowâ¦Iâ¦.â
âPlease,â Joshâs father said softly. âDarcy, you did nothing wrong. Itâs never wrong to be a real friend. He loved you. Not romantically, of course. You didnât love him that way, either. But he knew you really, truly cared about him. You were a special person to him. Incredibly so.â
She looked up at the old man who seemed bowed with sorrow, and yet so accepting. She offered him a teary, rueful smile. âPlease, youâre trying to comfort me. Youâve lost your only child.â
He looked back at her a long time. âI always knew that I would,â he said quietly. âAnd still, what a fine, bright boy! The love we shared will remain in this old heart as long as it ticks. I was privileged to have him as long as I did. Remember this, those we love do live forever in our hearts. Youâll remember his voice. The things he said that made you laugh. I canât explain this, butâ¦Josh wasnât really for this
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