Thereâs nothing but a pool of black beyond the light, so I canât even see the skyline of Oklahoma City.
âYou take the backseat,â he says. âIâll take the front.â
I stretch out on the backseat, but I canât stop the questions from squirming around in my head. Finally they worm their way out.
âWhat am I supposed to call her? Your new wife, I mean.â
He takes his time answering. âHer name is Lizzie. But she probably wonât mind if you call her Mom. Thatâs what the boys call her.â
âIâll call her Lizzie.â Mom is what I call
my
mother. âWhat are the boysâ namesâmy stepbrothers?â
âWell, actually they are your half brothers. Matthewâs the oldestânext to you, that is. We call him Matt for short. Then thereâs Mark, Luke, and Johnâmostly heâs called Little Johnny.â
âYou mean, like in the Bible?â
âItâs a tradition in Lizzieâs family. Theyâre into names that withstand the test of time, not goofy names. No oneâs gonna forget what the Huckaby boysâ names are, thatâs for sure.â
Goofy names. I wonder if he thinks Frankie Joe is goofy. Why he didnât give me a name that would withstand the test of time? All at once, I realize I donât even know
his
name.
âSo, whatâs your name? I mean, all Mom ever called you was FJâwhen she spoke of you at all, that is.â
âItâs Franklin. Franklin Joseph Huckaby, same as yours.â Heâs quiet for a couple of minutes. âIt was your momâs idea to name you that, and . . .â He pauses. âEven as a baby, you had my hair, my eyes, so . . .â He glances away, then back at me. âSo youâve got my name. If you want, you can call me Dad.â
âI see,â I say, but I donât really. Iâm wondering why my name wasnât his idea. âThanks, but Iâll call you FJ.â
He remains quiet for several more minutes. âI tried to keep in touch, but . . . well, I got busy with things.â
I translate âthingsâ to mean his new wife and four other sons.
âAnd thereâs something else . . .â His voice sounds funny, like heâs choking on a french fry. âLizzieâs the only wife I ever had.
Legal
wife, that is.â
âUh-huh,â I say. âWhat exactly does that mean?â
âIt, uh, it means your mom and I never got married.â
I understand. His other sons are legitimate, and Iâm not.
âBut we used my name on your birth certificate,â he says. âSo legally, your name is Huckaby.â He looks at me. âOkay?â
I say okay, but I donât feel better. I stare out the window at dark space lit up by an eerie white light, feeling like Iâve been kidnapped. Then I remember that it wonât be for longâonly ten months. Just until Mom gets out of jail.
Sunday, September 20
8:37 A.M.
âAre we there yet?â I rub the sleep from my eyes.
âNot by a long shot.â
A sign alongside the road tells me we are now on I-44. A different Triple-A map is lying open on the console, and I discover weâre in Missouri, west of St. Louis.
FJ pulls into a drive-through at the next McDonaldâs. âHop out and wash up. Iâll get breakfast sandwiches to go.â
When I get back, he folds up the Missouri map and hands me another one. âWeâll be crossing into Illinois soon.â
Back on the road, I see corn growingâreally tall cornâand something else I donât recognize. âWhatâs that stuff?â I point to bushy plants growing in arrow-straight rows that alternate with the cornfields.
âThat? Why, thatâs soybeans. Corn and soybeans are the major crops here. They pay the bills.â
I stare at him.
âI work as a grain inspector for the state,â he
Translated from the Bulgarian by Angela Rodel Georgi Gospodinov