keeps it down at the marina. We went all the way down the coast, didnât we, Mum? Dartmouth or somewhere. Bit rough, but it was great.â
âNothing like it,â he said, nodding away. âNothing like the sea. âI must go down to the sea again, to the lonely sea and the sky . . .â you know that poem, do you? Not true, of course. Youâre never lonely at sea. Itâs people that make you feel lonely, donât you think? You like poetry, do you? Always liked poems, I have. Iâve got dozens of them up here in my head.â
My mother spoke up suddenly: âHow did you know where to find us? How did you know?â
âIt was luck, just luck. It wasnât as if I was looking for him. It just happened. I was at home, a couple of weeks ago, and I had the radio on. Had it on for the weather, matter of fact. I always listen to the weather. I heard him, on that programme he does in the mornings. I didnât recognise his voice of course, but there was something about how he said what he said that I had to listen to. And then I heard his name. âArthur StevensâMorning Chatâ, they called it. Iâm not a fool. I knew well enough there was likely to be more than one Arthur Stevens in the world, I knew that. But I just had this feeling, like it was a meant-to-be thing. Do you understand what Iâm saying? It was like we were supposed to meet up again after all this time.
âSo, the same afternoon it was, I went and had a look. I walked right in the front door of the radio station. And there he was, larger than life up on the wall, a huge great smiling poster of him. I took one look and, Iâm telling you, I didnât have to read the signature across the bottom. It was him. Same big ears, same cheeky smile, same little Arthur. Just fifty years older, thatâs all. Couldnât mistake him. And then, whilst I was standing there looking up at him, he comes right past me, close enough I couldâve reached out and touched him. And I wanted to, believe me I wanted to; but I couldnât, I didnât dare. Then he was gone out of the door and it was too late.â
He swept the biscuit crumbs up into a little pile with his finger, and went on. âAnyway, after that I came over all giddy in the head. I get that from time to time. I had to sit down to steady myself, and there was this young lady at the desk who helped me. She was nice too. She brought me a glass of water. I reckon shewas a bit worried about me. After a bit, we got talking, her and me. I asked her about Arthur and she told me all about him â and about the two of you as well. She said how good he is to work with, how he cares about what he does. âNever stops,â she said. âWorks himself to a frazzle.â She told me about all the shows he does, how they phone in with all their cares and woes, and how he talks to them and makes them feel better about themselves. âYou should listen in some time,â she said. So I did. Iâve heard every one of his programmes ever since â never missed. Not once. Plays my kind of music too.â
He was looking at us hard. âI know what youâre thinking. Youâre thinking Iâm maybe a bit crazed in the head, a bit barmy. Well, maybe I am at that. Maybe I shouldnât have come at all. Iâve got no business being here, I suppose, not really, not after all these years.â His eyes were welling with tears. âIt was an agreement, a sort of understanding, between Arthurâs mother and me. Donât get me wrong. I donât blame her â I wasnât much good to her, I know that now. One day she just said sheâd had enough. She was leaving and she was taking young Arthur with her. She wanted a fresh start, she said. There was this other man â these things happen. Anyway it wasnât nasty, nothing like that. Itâdbe best all round if I stayed out of it, she said, best for the boy.