psychiatrist. He knows his job.â
âI know mine, too,â the nurse said, but softly.
River heard footsteps, then the first nurse again. âI apologize, Doctor. Iâll see to it she learns her place.â
âOh, donât be too hard on her. You know how overzealous new nurses can be. Uh, maybe it would be a good idea to keep her away from this particular patient, though. All right? I donât want anything interfering with his treatment.â
âYouâre a good friend. Heâs lucky to have you,â she said. âIâll see to it immediately.â
âThanks, Judy.â River heard scraping sounds, knew Ethan was taking his chart from the plastic holder there, probably writing in it. âMeanwhile, letâs increase the Haldol. See if it doesnât help.â
River groaned softly and gave up his hold on the door, letting himself sink to the floor. Ethan didnât believe him. His best friend didnât believe him. His head spun and he fought, fought hard to latch onto a thought. A single thought, anything, to save himself from the madness that was trying so hard to swallow him up.
He wasnât insane. It was the meds. The meds were killing him. Good. Good. What then? What could help him? He struggled; fog closed in but he pushed it back.
Nurse Jensenâ¦she knew. But no, she couldnât help him. No one could help him. He was on his own. Okay. So he was on his own. And on his own, he had to get out of this place. There. That was it, that was the answer heâd been seeking through the fog. He had to get out of this place.
* * *
Cassandra JacksonâJax to her friendsâsat in the front seat of Chief Frankie Parkerâs SUV as the countryside of Blackberry, Vermont, unwound before her. Sheâd been here before, but she would never get over the beauty of a Vermontwinter. The entire place looked like a Christmas cardâsugar-coated pine trees, leafless maples and poplars glittering with icicles, blankets of snow covering every gentle slope and level field. Frankie drove, smiling and talking nonstop about the benefits of being police chief of a small town. Jaxâs parents, Ben and Mariah, rode in the back, agreeing with every word Frankie said.
âYou were so right about this place, honey,â Mariah said. âWhen you told us a year ago that weâd love it here, I thought you were crazy, but itâs wonderful. Truly.â
Jax shrugged. âPerfect for you doesnât necessarily mean perfect for me.â Which was a lie and she knew it. Sheâd hit a glass ceiling in the Syracuse Police Department. Maybe because she was a woman, but more likely because her father was a convicted murderer whoâd only been out of prison for two years. Either way, sheâd gone as far as she could go there.
So when Frankie Parker phoned her with the job offer, sheâd been quick to take some vacation time and come up here to check things out. It made a nice excuse to visit her parents.
Sheâd fallen in love with the town of Blackberry when sheâd been up here a year ago, helping a friend and hunting a killer. Her friends were still hereâthe killer long dead. And now her parents had settled in nearby to boot, adding to the little townâs attraction.
âIt would be so nice to have you close by, right in the next town,â her father said, speaking slow and softly. âAfter all, weâve got a lot of lost time to make up for.â
âThat would be nice,â Jax agreed. God knew she hadnât had enough time with her fatherâa lifetime wouldnât be enough. Heâd served twelve hard years in prison, and lost his brilliant medical career because of it. He would never be able to practice medicine againâat least not on human beings. But he hadnât become despondent. Heâd written every day, as had she. And heâd begun studying veterinary medicine while stillin prison, and