started opening cupboards. She continued talking through the serving hatch. It was restfully familiar.
âI went down to see Juliet and Miles at the weekend.â
âAh.â
âNice to get out of town.â
âYes.â
âThey said theyâd love to see you. You should go down, itâs a lovely place.â
âYes. I will. At some stage. Howâs Miles?â
âOh, heâs doing very well.â
âAh.â Charles visualised his son-in-law, Miles Taylerson, the rising executive, neat in his executive house on his executive estate in Pangbourne with his executive car and his executive suits and his executive haircut. âDo you like Miles, Frances?â
âJulietâs very happy with him.â âWhich I suppose,â Charles reflected, âis some sort of answer.â Thinking of his daughter made him think of Jacqui again and he felt a flutter of panic in his stomach.
Frances produced the food very quickly. It was a dish with frankfurters and sour cream. Something new. Charles felt jealous at the thought that she was developing, learning new things without him. âTell you what,â he said, âshall I whip down to the off-licence and get a bottle of wine? Make an evening of it.â
âCharles, I canât âmake an evening of itâ. Iâve got to be at a PTA meeting at 7.30.â
âParents-Teachers? Oh, but canât youââ He stopped. No, you canât come back to someone you walked out on twelve years ago and expect them to be instantly free. Even if you have kept in touch and had occasional reconciliations. âHave a drink together later, maybe.â
âMaybe. If youâre still here.â
âI will be.â
âWhat is the matter, Charles?â
âI donât know. Male menopause?â It was a phrase heâd read in a colour supplement somewhere. Didnât really know if it meant anything.
âYou think youâve got problems,â said Frances.
She was always busy. Two things about Francesâshe was always busy and she was never surprised. These, in moments of compatibility, were her great qualities; in moments of annoyance, her most irritating traits.
The next morning she cooked a large breakfast, brought it up to him in bed, and hurried off to school. Charles lay back on the pillows and felt mellow. He saw the familiar gable of the Jenkinses opposite (theyâd had the paint work done blue) and felt sentimentality well up inside him.
Each time he came back to Frances, he seemed to feel more sentimental. At first. Then after a few days theyâd quarrel or heâd feel claustrophobic and leave again. And go on a blinder.
The impotence panic seemed miles away. It was another person who had felt that nausea of fear in his stomach. Long ago.
They had made love beautifully. Francesâ body was like a well-read book, familiar and comforting. Her limbs were thinner, the tendons a bit more prominent and the skin of her stomach loose. But she was still soft and warm. They had made love gently and easily, their bodies remembering each otherâs rhythms. Itâs something you never forget, Charles reflected. Like riding a bicycle.
He switched on the radio by the bedside. It was tuned to Capital Radioâpop music and jingles. So thatâs what Frances listened to. Strange. It was so easy to condemn her as bourgeois and predictable. When you actually came down to it, everything about her was unexpected. What appeared to be passivity was just the great calm that emanated from her.
When he was dressed, he needed human companionship and so rang his agent. âMaurice Skellern Artistes,â said a voice.
âMaurice.â
âWho wants him?â
âMaurice, I know thatâs you. Itâs me, Charles.â
âOh, hello. Howâd the radio go?â
âGhastly. It was the worst script Iâve ever seen.â
âItâs work,