me or made a smacking, sucking noise that made my gut churn. I’d never been kissed by anyone with experience. Until Bram. He kissed me long and easy, teasing my lips, making me comfortable. Then he opened my mouth and licked inside me, once, and then deeper. I let my mouth open and let him do it, greedy for more. I kissed him back and tried to lick him, and our tongues tangled. He tasted like sweetness and beer.
When he broke the kiss, he was panting almost as hard as I was. “You want more?” he asked me.
“Yes. Yes.”
He pulled down the straps of my bikini top, exposing my breasts to the summer air. I was too far gone by then to feel embarrassment. He dipped his head and took a nipple in his mouth, sucking it, and my back arched off the ground as I moaned. Then he sucked the other nipple, and I tangled my hands in his hair.
He looked up at me and smiled. “You like that.”
“Oh, God, yes,” I panted.
He was running his finger along my seam again, digging in harder this time through the fabric. I could see his chest rising and falling. “You’ve never fucked anyone before.” It wasn’t a question.
“No.” Please don’t let that be a turnoff. Please, please… I’d never had sex, but this summer I’d learned how to please myself. Thinking about him. Thinking about this. And I’d never admit it to him, but I’d done it a lot.
Now he ran his finger along the edge of the opening of my bikini leg, digging in. He leaned down and circled my nipple with his tongue. “Is that what you want?” he said hoarsely. “You want me to fuck you? You want me to be your first?”
“Yes,” I said. “Bram, please, yes. Yes .”
“We can’t go back if we do it,” he said. “We’re not supposed to, but no one will know. If I fuck you, I fuck you. I’ll be your first. That’s it.”
I squirmed against him and bit my lip. “Fuck me,” I said.
His eyes widened briefly in surprise, then he rose and grabbed his jeans from where he’d dropped them on the beach. He pulled his wallet from the pocket, then pulled out a condom in its wrapper.
Oh, my God, I thought. I’m really going to do this. I really am. I tried to feel bad, to feel afraid, but I didn’t. All I felt was crazy desire for him. I’d been shy all my life, but I wanted him now. It felt perfectly right. I didn’t want any other guy to be my first.
In one motion, he shucked off his swim trunks and knelt between my legs again. Now he was completely naked, his cock big and hard. I’d never seen a naked cock outside of internet pictures before, and now I was throbbing somewhere deep inside my body, somewhere I’d never felt before. My bikini top was too tight, even though it was pulled down. Everything was too tight. I undid the top and threw it aside. Bram grabbed my bikini bottom at the hips and pulled it off, the motion rough and urgent. When I was naked, he spread my legs open and looked down at me.
I was so wet I felt myself soaking my upper thighs. The hot summer wind blew across my body, between my legs. My nipples were hard as chips of ice. I arched my back a little and relaxed into the sand, completely spread for him, and closed my eyes. I heard him rip the condom wrapper and put it on.
Then he was leaning over me, braced on his arms. He kissed me again, but it was more urgent this time, and he broke it quickly, his teeth scraping my lip. “If it hurts, just say so,” he said. “I promise I’ll stop.” He dropped his head until his breath was on the skin between my neck and my shoulder. “Oh, fuck yes. Like that. Just like that.”
He was sliding into me, and it didn’t hurt at all. It felt big, and filling, hitting the empty spot inside of me. He was going slowly, the way easy because I was so slick. I whimpered.
He paused, but I didn’t protest, so he started again. All the way in, until he was completely inside me. I shifted my hips instinctively to take him deeper. It hurt a little, having him this deep, but the