since last fall.
Yes, she wants me off the team.
Yes, she said, âWhoop!â when she wasnât actually open.
Until now, sheâs never tried to sabotage me
during a game
. Because doing that is as bad for her as it is for me. Worse, itâs bad for the team.
So maybe, I think, she just got the code wrong. Maybe she mixed up âWhoop!â and âHey-o!â
Right.
At least, she finally spoke to me during a game.
And she kept talking to me during the next couple practices too. Then again, Coach made her. He kept shouting things like, âI canât hear you, Riley!â and âSpeak up, Williams!â I think the only reason he isnât going to bench us is because Fraser still managed to beat Cardinal Creek.
Whatever his reasons, I know Eva well enough to know sheâll do just about anything to stay on the field. So will I.
 . . .
In any case, the only thing worse than Eva not talking to me might be Eva talking
too much
.
Weâre playing Ironwood today. Over the roar of their fans, I can hear Eva yelling at me again for no reason. Sheâs spent the whole game barking orders and reminders at me. She tells me to watch the ball and to pay attention even though Iâm already doing both of those things. A couple times, as Iâm about to clear the ball by booting it up the field, she shouts, âIâm
not
open, Addie,â as if I need to be reminded not to pass the ball to a guarded player. Another time, she simply tells me to âPass it!â just as Iâm doing exactly that. Toward the end of the game, an Ironwood player tries to lob the ball into the penalty area. I camp under the pass, ready to spring into the air with my superhero calves and head the ball safely away from our end of the field. Just as Iâm about to launch, Eva says, âGet it, Addie!â
Her comments might seem harmless, but theyâre super annoying. Especially the way she says themâlike I need to be reminded how to play soccer. Like soccer isnât my life and isnât as natural to me as breathing or blinking. Theyâre the kind of comments neither of us would have dreamed of making during the summer.
Back then, we talked in code. Back then, we trusted each other completely.
T
rust must have had something to do with why I found myself in front of New Hope Church on a Wednesday night in July. Eva and I had been juggling the ball in her yard when she said she knew a place with more room. It turned out she was talking about the church lawn.
We tied Belle and Skittles by their leashes to a tree and practiced yelling, âWhoop!â and passing to each other. After a few minutes, people in nice clothes began shuffling up the sidewalk. Two of those people were her parents. âThere you are, Eva,â her mom said. âI hope you brought a change of clothes.â
âYes, mother,â Eva said, clearly annoyed.
âWell,â her dad said, âyou better go use the restroom to change. The service starts in a few minutes.â
Once again, Iâd forgotten all about church on weekdays.
â
Okay
, dad,â Eva said.
I watched her parents pass the tall pillars at the front of the church. When I turned back to Eva, I saw her pulling a summer dress out of her soccer bag.
âYou knew church was about to start, didnât you?â I asked.
She grinned guiltily and then pulled the dress over her head. âThought it might be less boring if I went with a friend.â
âIâm not really a churchgoer,â I said.
âOh, câmon.â She was still wearing her shirt and shorts under her dress. âItâll be fun. Trust me.â
There was that word again. Trust.
Of course, I didnât trust herânot about this. I hadnât been to New Hope in years, but the last time I was there, it definitely wasnât fun.
And yet, there I was anywayâsitting with Eva in the balcony of the church, my