enough already.â She poked his biceps, which, he couldnât help but notice, were very close to bulging. âAny more and youâll have to buy new clothes.â
âNever!â he said indignantly, and smoothed out his T-shirt, which had a bakerâs dozen holes in the soft cotton and read IâM COSPLAYING AS MYSELF in letters nearly too faded to read. âDid you, uh, did you happen to bring Isabelle with you?â He tried to keep the hope out of his voice.
Hard to believe that two years ago, heâd come to the Academy in part to escape Clary and Isabelle, the way theyâd looked at him like they loved him more than anyone else in the worldâbut also like heâd drowned their puppy in a bathtub. Theyâd loved some other version of him, the one he could no longer remember, and that version had loved them, too. He didnât doubt it; he just couldnât feel it. Theyâd been strangers to him. Terrifyingly beautiful strangers who wanted him to be someone he wasnât.
It felt like another life. Simon didnât know if heâd ever get all of his memories backâbut somehow, despite that, heâd found his way back to Clary and Isabelle. Heâd found a best friend who felt like his other half, who would someday soon be his parabatai . And heâd found Isabelle Lightwood, a miracle in human form, who said âI love youâ whenever she saw him and, incomprehensibly, seemed to mean it.
âShe wanted to come,â Clary said, âbut she had to go deal with this rogue faerie thing in Chinatown, something about soup dumplings and a guy with a goat head. I didnât ask too many questions andââ She smiled knowingly at Simon. âI lost you at âsoup dumplings,â didnât I?â
Simonâs stomach growled loudly enough to answer for him.
âWell, maybe we can grab you some on the way,â Clary said. âOr at least a couple slices of pizza and a latte.â
âDonât toy with me, Fray.â Simon was very touchy these days on the subject of pizza, or the lack thereof. He suspected that any day now his stomach might resign in protest. âOn the way where?â
âOh, I forgot to explainâthatâs why Iâm here, Simon.â Clary took his hand. âIâve come to take you home.â
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Simon stood on the sidewalk staring up at his motherâs brownstone, his stomach churning. Traveling by way of Portal always made him feel a bit like puking up his lower intestine, but this time he didnât think he could blame the interdimensional magic. Not entirely, at least.
âYou sure this is a good idea?â he said. âItâs late.â
âItâs eleven p.m., Simon,â Clary said. âYou know sheâs still awake. And even if sheâs not, you knowââ
âI know.â His mother would want to see him. So would his sister, who, according to Clary, was home for the weekend because someoneâ presumably a well-meaning, redheaded someone with his sisterâs cell numberâhad told her Simon was stopping in for a visit.
He sagged against Clary for a moment, and, small as she was, she bore his weight. âI donât know how to do it,â he said. âI donât know how to say good-bye to them.â
Simonâs mother thought he was away at military school. Heâd felt guilty lying to her, but heâd known there wasnât any other choice; he knew, all too well, what happened when he risked telling his mother too much truth. But thisâthis was something else. He was forbidden by Shadowhunter Law to tell her about his Ascension, about his new life. The Law also forbade him from contacting her after he became a Shadowhunter, and though there was nothing saying he couldnât be here in Brooklyn to say good-bye to her forever, the Law forbade him from explaining why.
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