her head down as she ran up the school steps, that Iâd been tactless. One more time.
When I got to our homeroom, Al wasnât there. Our new homeroom teacher, Ms. Bolton, was at her desk, marking papers. I feel sorry for Ms. Bolton. So does Al. She doesnât seem to have made friends. The other teachers are polite but not particularly friendly. Once Al and I were on the bus and we saw Ms. Bolton walking with a man. She looked really happy, the only time Iâve seen her look that way.
Ms. Bolton wears big baggy sweaters, full skirts, and red tights. Almost every day she wears the same thing. I think she might change her luck if she changed the color of her tights. I would like to suggest this to her but feel itâs none of my business. Al and I have decided that she must be one of those people who, through no fault of her own, doesnât relate to others. Al says that, psychologically, Ms. Bolton is the sort others shun. She read about this sort of person in some medical journal and sheâs decided thatâs Ms. Boltonâs problem. I think we should do something to try to help her. But I donât know exactly what.
âHello, Ms. Bolton,â I said. She raised her head and for a minute I donât think she registered. Her eyes looked blank. Then she came to, said hello back to me, and went on working. Sheâs not much for small talk, I guess.
I went to my desk and began to clean it out. Even though weâd only been back at school a few weeks, it was already crammed with junk. Iâm basically quite untidy. I mean, I can live with a mess. But because I wanted to keep busy, I made a big show of gathering up some gum wrappers and scratch sheets Iâd doodled on and carrying them up to the wastebasket.
Ms. Bolton went on working. I might have been the Invisible Man, for all she noticed.
Then, as I made my way back to my desk, I heard her make a funny noise. âSorry?â I said, turning to look at her. Her head was down on her desk. Then Al showed up. It was me and her and Ms. Bolton in the room.
â Que passe ?â Al said.
âMaybe sheâs sick,â I said.
Ms. Boltonâs head stayed down. I think she was crying. Her shoulders moved, but she didnât make a sound.
Al went to her and touched her on the arm.
âCan we help?â she said. I wish Iâd thought of doing or saying that.
Ms. Bolton lost it then. Completely. I mean, she bawled. Really loud.
âYou think we should call somebody?â I asked Al.
Ms. Bolton mustâve heard. âNo,â she said, raising her head. âPlease. Iâll be all right. Just give me a minute.â
Tears streamed down her face. Her hair was wild. So were her eyes.
âIâll get some water,â Al whispered and she skinned out. I stayed put, not knowing what else to do.
Ms. Bolton took a few gulps of air and shook her hair out of her eyes.
âIâm all right, really,â she said. She blew her nose and smiled weakly at me. âMy life just isnât what ⦠well, itâs hard to explain. It just isnât what Iâd hoped. Iâll get it together soon.â
Al came back, saving me from having to reply.
âHere.â Al thrust a small paper cup at Ms. Bolton.
âThanks.â She drained the cup and smiled a watery smile. âIâm sorry, kids. Thanks. I donât want to lay my problems on you. Do me a favor. Donât say anything about this to anyone, O.K.?â
We heard someone coming. Hastily, Ms. Bolton ran a comb through her hair and her face assumed a somewhat more cheerful look.
Wouldnât you know. Martha Moseley bustled in, full of herself, as usual.
âMs. Bolton,â she said, âI know itâs not due until next week, but I did my English assignment early. I got carried away. My poem is about going to a graveyard and studying the gravestones, what they say.â Martha slid her eyes sideways, checking to see if