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that much worse parenting tales existed: hers didn’t mistreat, neglect or abuse her. They catered for all her physical needs, and even showed an interest in her education. But the two things Jenny craved above all remained sadly missing: love and affection. Never, in her entire childhood, could she recall either of her parents giving her so much as a goodnight peck on the cheek. Even when she’d been in hospital with appendicitis when she was nine, there’d been no reassuring hugs, no meaningful embraces, no heartfelt kisses; nothing more than an awkward patting of her hand.
    It was a state of affairs Jenny had come to accept. But never one with which she became comfortable. As she grew older, she consoled herself with the fact that it wouldn’t be for ever, and, to make sure, she meticulously planned her escape. University. That would be her way out. She set her heart on Edinburgh. A romantic, fun city where she imagined her young life really beginning. To ensure the fulfilment of her plan, she worked her socks off at school, desperate to achieve the requisite exam results. The day she received a letter offering her a place to study history had been the happiest of her life.
    But, three months before her start date, a tragic event occurred which completely destroyed every one of Jenny’s dreams and, for all she didn’t know it at the time, her entire life plan. While eating his lunch at the desk in the office where he’d worked as an accountant for thirty years, her father collapsed and died of a heart attack. Along with the remainder of his ham and chutney sandwich, on the desk lay an A4 sheet of lined paper, headed up ‘Jenny’s University Costs’, below which nestled a neat column of figures in the distinctive green ink of Cyril Rutter’s fountain pen.
    When informed of this fact, and being furnished with the aforementioned list, Phyllis Rutter’s attitude to her daughter – lukewarm at the best of times – slid into glacial territory.
    ‘Of course we all know what killed him,’ became the woman’s long-standing mantra, predictably followed by a meaningful glower in Jenny’s direction.
    Although never close to her father, Jenny had nonetheless been distraught at his death, her reaction not helped by Phyllis’s snide accusations. And as much as Jenny tried to convince herself that it couldn’t possibly have been the university costs that had caused his death – her parents weren’t badly off, and she fully intended contributing financially herself – she couldn’t shake off the heavy cloak of guilt that Phyllis had so callously dumped over her young shoulders.
    ‘Of course you realise there’s no way you can go to university now,’ Phyllis announced completely out of the blue one evening. Jenny could still recall the moment as if it were yesterday. It was a Thursday and she’d been whipping up omelettes for tea. They’d had omelettes for tea every Thursday since.
    ‘But why ever not?’ she asked. ‘If it’s about money, you won’t have to contribute a penny. I’ve already got my grant, and I’ll get a part-time job. Waiting on tables, or working in a shop or a –’
    ‘It’s not about money. It’s about me. You’ll have to stay and look after me.’
    Jenny stared at her mother, nonplussed. What was she talking about? The woman wasn’t old. She enjoyed good health and was more than capable of looking after herself. She was about to voice all of this reasoned argument when Phyllis’s next comment drew the strings of Jenny’s cloak of guilt tight around her neck and tied them in an undoable knot.
    ‘It’s your fault your father’s dead, so the least you can do is carry out his dying wish and stay here with me.’
    The ringing of the doorbell jolted Jenny back to the present. She waited for the unfailing response from the living room. It came immediately.
    ‘There’s someone at the door. You’d better answer it.’
    Jenny didn’t bother to reply. Her mother tacked the same