donât think I can keep smelling this fish.â
âSure you can,â I say. âJust breathe through your mouth.â Before she can object, I say, âNow the second piece.â
She turns back and picks up another piece, holding it away from herself like a dirty diaper. When she touches it to the cornmeal, I press her hand down.
âEew!â Her hand flies up like itâs been electrocuted, and she jumps back from the stove.
I almost laugh out loud.
âThat was gross.â She turns to me. âWhy did you do that?â
Lottie is looking at me. She looks mad too.
I make a what-did-I-do face at her and turn to Melissa. âHavenât you ever cooked fish before?â
She hesitates, then goes, âOf course I have. Fishsticks.â
I canât believe Lottie doesnât huff like I do on hearing that. âFishsticks? Fish donât come out looking like little bars.â I cannot believe this girl. I grab her arm and pull her out the back door.
âViolet!â Lottie pulls fish out with the tongs, but she canât leave the stove with the kettle going.
Melissa wrenches her arm away as we get up to Mr. Townsendâs station. Perfect. Heâs just made the first cut on a big one, right under the head. The fishâs eye is wide and looking up. His mouth is gaping, like he was surprised to have been caught. Mr. Townsend turns the blade and pulls it down. He lifts the skin and meat as he cuts and the fishâs belly is exposed. With his fingers, Mr. Townsend wiggles out the wormy-looking guts.
âOh!â Melissa has her arm against her mouth.
She steps backward, but I pick up the dump bucket and show her. âSee?â I shake the bucket. Guts and fish heads slide over each other. âThis is what cooking real fish looks like.â
She pushes away from me and runs toward the steps but doesnât make it. She vomits right there on the stairs.
âMelissa!â Mrs. Townsend runs to her. She sweeps Melissaâs hair back and holds it while Melissa finishes up.
I put the bucket down and stare. I didnât mean for her to puke. But if you think youâre going to be part of a fish fry, you better know it ainât no fishsticks.
Lottieâs at the screen door watching the Golds leave. Mrs. Townsend hoses down the back steps as Hannah and Ashley run around. Iâm pulling the fish out of the kettle; theyâve turned out perfectly. The Goldsâ motor turns on, and I hear the crunching of gravel as their car turns out of Lottieâs driveway.
Tootsie clatters up the porch steps, throws open the screen door, and runs in. âTheyâre gone,â she announces. When no one says anything, she brushes by Lottie and grabs her hand. âDonât be sad.â
Lottie pats Tootsieâs head. âIâm not sad,â she says. She lets go of Tootsie and tells her to tell their mom everythingâs about ready. Then she looks at me. âIâm a little mad.â She walks up to where Iâm laying the fillets on paper towels. She leans against the counter. âI know you didnât do it on purpose, but you were kind of mean to her.â
My mouth drops open, mainly because I didnât think Lottie had noticed. But now Iâve got to defend myself. âLottie,â I say, peering directly into her eyes, âwe were both showing her how to cook fish. You heard what she saidâthe smell was getting to her.â
Lottie squints. Sheâs not quite buying it.
âYouâre the one who wanted her to cook with us. I was just trying to be helpfulâI even gave her my apron so her clothes wouldnât get dirty, remember?â
Lottie nods. âThat was nice of you.â
âSo when she said that about the smell, I thought maybe sheâd do better outside, thatâs all.â
Lottieâs face scrunches up. She needs one more push.
I shake my head. âI just feel sorry for her,