on. Mommaâs gonna kill you if she finds out youâre still outside! Come on!â Faith grabbed my arm and started dragging me away.
âLook, sheâs running away, scared to get her butt beat!â Dee Dee shouted as we ran down the street. But I didnât care; if Momma knew I was still outside, sheâd do far worse to me than Dee Dee ever could.
Faith and I snuck into the house through the back door. The kitchen smelled like fresh rolls and pork chops. My stomach started to growl, I hadnât eaten a thing all day. But that wasnât unusual; we never had food in the house. Or maybe it was because Momma told me I needed to stop eating so much because I was chunky. I used to hate watching Faith eat snacks and candy while I had nothing.
âCome on!â Faith whispered, after peeking around the wall to see if Momma was sitting in the living room. âShe looks like sheâs sleeping.â
She grabbed my arm and pulled me down the hallway. Once we were in her room, she flopped down on her bed and relaxed. âIf Momma knew you were still outside, she wouldâve blacked your eye!â
I laughed. âBut she didnât. She probably fell asleep watching her shows. You know she wanted to see if Bobby was going to leave Christina for Angie.â
âI watched it with her.â Faith laughed. âAnd Bobby did leave Christina but only because sheâs pregnant by Bobbyâs brother. And why were you outside with all those kids?â
âBig, fat Dee Dee wanted to beat me up because I wonât let Jordan be your boyfriend.â
Faithâs eyes widened. âJordan wants to be my boyfriend?â
âYes, and Momma said you canât date until your sixteen. Plus, Jordan is ugly!â
âNo, heâs not! All of the girls in the seventh and eighth grade like him, too! I heard an eighth grader saying she wanted to do it to him!â
âEw!â I started to choke, like I was dying.
âAnd heâs sweet to me,â Faith said in a dreamlike state.
âWell, heâs mean to me, and I donât want you talking to him!â
Faith was quiet for a minute. I watched her fiddle with her fingers in contemplation.
âWhat is it, Faith?â
âNothing,â she mumbled, keeping her eyes averted.
âNo, tell me! You never keep anything from me.â
Faith sighed. âI started my period today.â
I laughed. âAbout time! What did Momma say?â
âShe was happy, I guess. Said Iâm finally becoming a woman.â
I frowned. âMomma whooped my butt when she found out when I started. Remember? She said I was doing the nasty with them little boys because eleven-year-old girls donât get periods and it had to be my cherry, whatever that means. And when the doctor told her it was my period, she didnât apologize for beating me.â
âIâm sorry about that, Hope,â Faith said, as if it was her fault.
âWhy do you always apologize for Mommaâs actions?â
Faith shrugged. âEverybody deserves an apology. When I went to church last Sunday, the preacher said everybody should also forgive those who sin against us.â
âWhatâs sin?â
âItâs when people do bad things that Jesus tells them not to do. He has a lot of rules that weâre supposed to listen to. Like weâre not supposed to steal, or lie, or kill, and we have to love God first,â she explained.
âHow many rules are there?â
âToo many to count.â
I nodded and tried to picture the preacher preaching the words that my twin had the privilege of hearing. I learned at an early age to hate church. If God wanted me to go, Heâd have me there. But I still sat outside near the church every Sunday and sang all the church songs. Mostly because I loved to sing; partly because I didnât want to feel left out.
Momma didnât go to church either. Whenever I asked her,