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knowing damn right good and well that I wasn't.
    "Have
you told Madison?"
    I looked up
through hooded eyes at my grams, "no, I can never tell him. He will never
want me again."
    "Oh
dear, you know that ain't true. That boy loves you. Kayla, that boy would climb
the tallest mountain for you, swim the deepest ocean, hell he would even give
you his own life as long as he could have just a small piece of you. I know
this."
    "How do
you know?"
    "Because
I spoke with the young man the day he left. There ain't nothin' that boy
wouldn't give to be with you."
    I slowly sat
back in my chair, wiping the still falling tears off of my cheeks. "He
asked me to go with him." As much as I didn't want to tell her, I felt I
owed her that since she had shared something with me.
    "I see.
And why didn't you go? Do you not love him, Kayla?"
    "Of
course I do. I know that sounds a little trite, given the current situation and
the lack of time that I've known him, but I really do. He's all I ever think
about. Everyday, I wake up and go to sleep thinkin' of nothin' but him. Hell,
he's even in my dreams. I can't shake him, and I don't think I want to. Does
that make any sense?" I set my head back against the tall wooden chair and
began rocking.
    "Of
course that makes sense. It's called the Raine Effect." My grandmomma
chuckled. "I too, was once in love with a Raine. I don't know what it is
about those men, but they have somethin' that grips at your soul and never lets
go. Trust me baby, I understand."
    My eyes shot
open and in the direction of my grandmomma. "Well, I reckon one day you'll
have to tell me that story."
    "Another
day, dear, another day. I think you should call that boy. He is probably just
about freakin' out. How long has it been since he has even heard from
you?"
    "A
month." I whispered, ashamed at my behavior.
    "Good
lord, that's quite a while. Kayla Anne James, you march your butt into that
house and you pick up that phone to call that boy. You need to put him out of
his misery. Now I'm not sayin' you need to share everything you shared with me, but you need to make him understand,
before it's too late."
    I nodded in
agreement. I stood and kissed my grandmomma on the head as I made my way inside
to find my cell phone. I had turned it off almost three weeks ago, when Madison
wouldn't stop calling. As soon as I powered it on, I saw all the missed calls
and messages. My entire voicemail box was full. I couldn't believe it.
    Before I
called Madison, I sat against my headboard and listened to every last message
he had left me. They varied from sad, to mad, to angry, to hurt, to heartbroken
and finally livid. I wasn't sure exactly how he was going to react to me
calling, or if he'd even pick up, but I had to take the chance, on him.

Chapter 3
    Madison
    I woke up
again a little after one in the mornin', unable to get any sort of sleep. I was
feeling a bit loopy due to my sleeping pill, but I could no longer just lay in
bed staring at the ceiling, willing her to come back to me. After my
conversation with Glenn and Cami today, I could only assume that she was
finding a way to move on from me.
    Of course it
broke my heart, but what could I do really? Kayla was a strong willed girl, and
if she wanted something, she would make it happen. Obviously, what she wanted
wasn't me. I pushed myself into a sitting position, as I ran my hands down my
face, trying to wake up enough to get out of this suffocating dorm room. I
pulled on a pair of jeans, my black t-shirt, black chucks and my signature
baseball cap and headed out. I wasn't exactly sure where I was going, but ASU
was known as the party school, so I'm sure I could find some sort of trouble to
get into.
    Sure enough
after walking down sorority row, or whatever they called it these days, I saw
that one of the sororities was having a party. There was a slew of plastic red
cups strung across the yard along with a couple of people. Some passed out,
some having sex and some throwing up the contents of