me.â
He made a face, whispering back, âAh, canât outsmart a woman, especially one with a Ph.D.âin witchcraft, no less.â
Enjoying being the center of attention, dressed in my exotic costume, I floated around the apartment greeting people, all the while imagining myself as Xiwang Mu, Queen Mother of the West who reigns over all the immortals. And Ivan as if he were the King Father of the East, casting me protective, or controlling, glances as he chatted with his friends. A friend of mine strummed a guitar, providing soft background music for the partygoers.
In a corner next to the altar, Brenda talked with one of the male guests, her delicate hands and fingers, never having practiced nonattachment, lingered on the manâs arms and shoulders. Brenda always told me that a little flirting never hurts, for all men like it, even gays and grandfathers.
After all the greetings, Ivan came back to me. We took food from the table and sat down on a couch to eat. My department head, Timothy Lee, came to sit with us.
Downing a big gulp of Ivanâs expensive wine, Timothy smiled. âHappy birthday, Eileen. How are you?â
âBusy teaching and writing, as you know.â
âHave you considered my suggestion?â
âYes, but Iâm not strong on Western witchcraft. . . .â
âThen you should do some serious fieldwork.â
âI thought of that, butââ
âEileen is not going anywhere. I need her here,â Ivan said.
I gave him a disapproving look.
Timothy ignored Ivanâs remark and went on. âFieldwork is the way to make your work credible.â
Now my boyfriend, maybe soon to be ex, put his arm protectively around my shoulder. âNo. What about if Eileen gets sick or even captured by natives?â
Timothy smiled. âIf Eileen is a witch, Iâm sure sheâll find a way out. Or if sheâs a shamaness, sheâll be in another time and space before anything happens, ha!â With that, he winked at me, stood up, and began to talk with one of the professors.
Soon there was the sound of metal hitting glass. The room went quiet and Timothy spoke to the crowd. âLetâs ask our birthday girl, Eileen Chen, to entertain us all with some witchcraft!â
Laughter and applause burst out.
Red-faced and probably half-drunk on Ivanâs free-flowing, expensive wine, Timothy went on excitedly. âWe all know that Eileen is a . . . letâs put it this way, Eileen is a professor of Chinese and Western witchcraft.â He turned to me. âSo could you show us some tricks?â
People cheered as Ivan cast me an encouraging look. Now that I was on the spot, I wished I really did possess supernatural powers, such as to break a glassâspecifically the one in Timothy Leeâs hand. Or simply disappearing for a quick mystic journey to the other world. Unfortunately I didnât have such abilities. But I had to admit to myself that if my colleagues thought I did, it was my fault because I had so often dropped hints of having special powers.
The guests were not going to take no for an answer.
âYes, letâs see some witchcraft on your birthday!â
âOpen our eyes!â
âEileen, bring some excitement to our tedious lives, please!â
I decided that all right, Iâd try. If I failedâand of course I wouldâmy excuse was that I was too tired from work.
My reluctant feet dragged me to the middle of the living room. I meditated, then circulated my internal energy the way my mother and grandmother had taught me. My eyes searched the room for an easy object upon which to exercise my supposed power. Seconds later, they landed on the guitar strings.
I asked the guitar player, who was my colleague, âJohn, can you play the âSpiderâs Danceâ? You played it at last yearâs Christmas party.â
I gathered up my courage, and announced, âIâm going to break the