widened. âOh, Mrsâ¦.oh, Stephanie. Gosh, Iâm so sorry. That was such a dumb thing to ask you.â
âNo. Not at all. Iâm just trying to think ofâ¦â Of what lie will sound best. âOf what to tell you.â
She hadnât been nervous the day sheâd married Avery, or even scared. Terrified was more accurate, terrified and desperate and almost frantic with fearâ¦but, of course, she could never tell that to this innocent child, never tell it to anyone, and the fact she was even thinking about the possibility only proved how frazzled her nerves really were.
Stephanie smiled brightly. âBecause, you understand, it was such a long time ago. Seven years, you know? Sevenââ
Dawn grasped Stephanieâs hands. âForgive me, please. Iâm so wrapped up in myself today that I forgot that Mr. Willinghamâsâthat heâsâthat youâre a widow. I didnât mean to remind you of your loss.â
âNo. No, really, thatâs all right. Iâm notââ
âI am such an idiot! Talking without thinking, I mean. Itâs my absolutely worst trait. Even Nicky says so. Sometimes, I just babble something before Iâve thought it through and I get myself, everybody , in all kinds of trouble! Oh, I am so sorry, Stephanie! Can you forgive me?â
âThereâs nothing to forgive,â Stephanie said gently, smiling at the girl.
âAre you sure?â
âAbsolutely.â
âNo wonder you looked so sad when I came into the room. It must be so awful, losing the man you love.â
Stephanie hesitated. âI suppose it is,â she said after a minute.
âI can just imagine. Why, if anything ever happened to Nickyâ¦if anything were to separate usâ¦â Dawnâs eyes grew suspiciously bright. She laughed, swung toward the mirror, yanked a tissue from the container on top of the vanity table and dabbed at her lashes. âJust listen to me! I am turning into the most maudlin creature in the whole wide world!â
âItâs understandable,â Stephanie said. âTodayâs a very special one for you.â
âYes.â Dawn blew her nose. âI feel like Iâm on a roller coaster. Up one minute, down the next.â She smiled. âThanks, Stephanie.â
âFor what?â
âFor putting up with me. I suppose all brides are basket cases on their wedding days.â
âIndeed,â Stephanie said with another bright, artificial smile. âWell, if youâre sure youâre okayâ¦â
âIâm fine.â
âWould you like me to look for your mother and send her in?â
âNo, donât do that. Momâs got enough to deal with today. You go on and have fun. Did you pick up your table card yet?â
Stephanie paused at the door and shook her head. âNo. No, I didnât.â
âAh.â Dawn grinned. âWell, if I remember right, Mom and I put you at a terrific table.â
âDid you?â Stephanie said with what she hoped sounded like interest.
âUh-huh. Youâre sitting with a couple from New York, old friends of Momâs and Dadâs. You know, from when they were still married.â
âThat sounds nice.â
âAnd my cousin and her husband. Nice guys, both of them. Heâs an engineer, sheâs a teacher.â
âWell,â Stephanie said, still smiling, âthey all soundââ
âAnd with my uncle David. Well, heâs not really my uncle. I mean, heâs Mr. Chambers, but Iâve known him forever. Heâs a friend of my parentsâ. Heâs this really cool guy. Really cool. And handsome.â Dawn giggled. âHeâs a bachelor, and very sexy for an older man, you know?â
âYes. Well, he soundsââ
The door swung open and two of Dawnâs bridesmaids sailed into the room on a strain of music and a gust of laughter.
Tim Lahaye, Jerry B. Jenkins