Before I was married."
"Uh-huh. It's a high velocity job, isn't it?"
"Yes." Breton could feel the bewilderment building up inside him to an
almost physical pressure. What had happened?
"Ugly things," Convery commented casually. "They destroy animals.
I don't know why people use them."
"It's a good machine, that's all," Breton replied. "I like good machines.
Oh, I forgot -- it isn't working."
"Why not?"
"I dropped the bolt one day and I think it jammed the pin."
"Uh-huh." Convery removed the rifle's bolt, examined it, smelt the breech,
peered through the barrel at a table lamp, then handed the weapon back
to the patrolman. "That the only rifle you own?"
"Yes. Look, Lieutenant, this has gone on long enough. Why are you here?"
Breton hesitated. "Has anything happened to my wife?"
"I thought you'd never ask." Convery's blue eyes roved Breton's face.
"Your wife is all right. She was foolish enough to walk through the park
tonight, without company, and a man attacked her -- but she's all right."
"I don't understand. How . . . how can she be all right if she was attacked?"
"Well, she was very lucky, Mr. Breton. Another man, who incidentally
looked like you, stepped out from behind a tree and blew the attacker's
head off with a rifle."
"What? You don't think . . . Where's the man now?"
Convery smiled. "We don't know that, as yet. He seems to have
vanished. . . ."
A sense of aching vastness, shifting of perspectives and parallax,
unthinkable transitions in which the curvatures of space-time writhe
between negative and positive, and infinity yawns at the mid-point --
numinous, illusory, poignant. . . .
"Look at that guy drink," Gordon Palfrey was saying. "He's really going
into orbit tonight."
The others turned to look at Breton, who -- desperately needing time
to reorient himself -- smiled wanly and sat down in a deep armchair. He
noticed a speculative look in Kate's eyes and wondered if there was any
way for a casual observer to detect that he had been blacked out.
An analyst called Fusciardi had, after an unsatisfactory investigation,
assured him the lapses were unnoticeable, but Breton had found it
difficult to believe because the trips often occupied several hours of
subjective time. Fusciardi's explanation was that Breton had an unusual,
but not unique, capacity for flashes of absolute recall occupying only
split seconds of objective time. He had even suggested referring the
case to a university psychological team, but at that point Breton had
lost interest.
Breton relaxed further into the big old chair, enjoying the comfort of
its sane solidity. That particular episode was cropping up more often
lately and he found it depressing, even though Fusciardi had warned
him that key scenes in his life -- especially those involving emotional
stress -- would be most liable for reclamation. Tonight's trip had been
unusually long, and its impact increased by the fact that he had had so
little warning. There had been none of the visual disturbances which
Fusciardi had told him were commonly the prelude to a migraine attack
in other people.
Chilled by his brush with the past, Breton tried to increase his hold on
the present, but Kate and the Palfreys were still absorbed in the unusual
sample of automatic writing. He listened for a moment as they went through
the ritual of trying to identify the author, then allowed his mind to
drift in a warm alcoholic haze. A lot seemed to have happened in an
evening which had started off in an atmosphere of distilled dullness. I
should have stayed in the office with Carl, he thought. The Blundell
Cement Company survey had to be com pleted in less than a week, and had
been going slowly even before the unlikely twenty milligal discrepancies
in the gravimeter readings showed up. Perhaps they had not been corrected
properly. Carl was good, but there were so many factors to be considered
in gravity surveying -- sun and moon positions, tidal movements,