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feeling really uncomfortable about it.”
    “Well join the damn club, man! There seems to be some wacky notion that doctors are immune to the human body’s vulgarity. It ain’t the case, pal. When it comes to areas best left private, I don’t want to know about it.”
    I studied the miserable excuse for a doctor that sat before me. He was wearing a stain-riddled singlet and what looked like lime green pajama bottoms. The skin on his face was stretched tight and vaguely translucent. I could see a forest of writhing veins beneath. A tuft of white hair sprung from atop his egg-shaped head. There was nothing nice about this man. I started to fight my way out of the beanbag.
    “What are you doing?” asked the doctor.
    “I thought it might be best if I left. This isn’t very nice for either of us.”
    “Sit back down, you idiot. I’m a doctor aren’t I? God… my conscience won’t allow for me to let you up and leave like that.”
    I was stuck halfway between sitting and standing, eyeing the doctor, trying to figure him out. “Is there anything you can do for me?”
    “I don’t know,” admitted the doctor. “There’s probably some tests I can run or something.”
    “So you’ll take a look at it?”
    The doctor grimaced in disgust. “Yes… I suppose I can take a look at it. But seriously, man. If you tell anyone about this, I’m going to fuck you up. When chicks think of doctor’s, they imagine a handsome dude saving lives and helping small breasts to grow. They don’t picture a dude fondling another dude’s arse.”
    I fell back into the beanbag, cautious yet confident that an agreement had been reached. “So… what do you need me to do?”
    “Just take your damn pants off and we’ll get this over with, okay?”

    There are few things less comforting than the feeling of standing in front of a man you don’t trust with your shame exposed – except for maybe spreading your arse cheeks and bending over to give that man an intimate look at your pucker. My pants were around my ankles and my palms were pressed against the doctor’s foldout table. I was paying this guy to violate me.
    He began by prodding the general area cautiously with a stick, like he thought it would bite him. When he sensed no danger, he moved in closer. “ This is some sick shit” , he kept saying to himself. The anticipation this built in me was painful but nowhere near as painful as the feeling of his ungloved and unlubricated fingers entering my body. I inhaled deeply, clenching around his anxious digits. As the tension built, I applied more pressure on the table, which was wobbling beneath the strain.
    “You’re most likely going to feel a little uncomfortable now,” the doctor said.
    Now? I thought. I had a naïve hope that I was already experiencing the worst but no… it got much worse. He began to force his whole hand inside me. I bit down on my lip, my eyes welling with tears. I focused my attention on a faded postcard tacked to the wall. The landscape it portrayed was barren, except for an old government building off to the side. It was one of those early 70s buildings with an obnoxious lack of character – the kind ‘designed’ by a bottom-line architect following a depressing formula. I placed myself in the postcard building, trying desperately to extract myself from the invasive situation. My mind darted back and forth between the doctor’s ever-disappearing hand and the imaginary postcard world.
    “Yuck! I got something,” said the doctor.
    “What is it?”
    “Hold on. Give me a chance to pluck it out and then we’ll both know.”
    He began twisting his hand inside me, like he was picking a piece of fruit. Pain radiated from the area. The postcard became a grey blur and my mind started begging me to pass out – anything to escape the situation.
    The doctor’s hand, accompanied by a wet, sucking sound intervened. I gorged on oxygen and went limp. I didn’t dare turn around. I could feel breeze gusting