the truth was that I wasnât at all worried about Nicole. Sheâd killed my best friend because Serena was dating Daniel. He didnât know that. Worse, at the time of Serenaâs death, heâd been ready to break up with her and if heâd just done it a little sooner, sheâd still be alive. I hadnât told him because I didnât want to put that kind of burden on him. So I had to pretend I was still concerned about Nicole, too.
âItâs not just worry,â I said. âI feel responsible. Like theyâre waiting for us to rescue them and we have no idea how to do that.â
He put his arm around my waist and pulled me, so I could lean against him. âWeâll do our best.â
I closed my eyes and tried to block the mechanical roar of the city and imagine my forest instead, the sigh of wind through redwoods, the buzz of thrush and the whistle of marmots, the soft drip of rain. It took awhile, but soon I was able to hear them, and when I did, exhaustion took over and I drifted off to sleep.
There was still no answer at my grandmotherâs place. She volunteered at the heritage center, most recently in project management. She was Haida, like my mom. Mom wasnât really active in the Native community, but Grandma was. I help her out with festivals and such, but I always feel a little out of place. Iâm adopted and I am Native, but Navajo, not Haida. I donât know much about that part of my heritage, except that it doesnât usually come with the ability to shape-shift into a wildcat. Iâm just special. Unfortunately.
There was a really good chance, then, that I knew the woman who answered the phone at the heritage center, but not well enough to recognize her voice. And, thankfully, she didnât recognize mine.
âHi,â I said. âMy name is Joy. I know this is going to sound weird, but Iâm trying to get in touch with Maya Delaneyâs parents.â
A sharp intake of breath on the other end.
âI know what happened,â I said. âMy mom saw it in the paper. We have a cottage near Salmon Creek, so Iâd met most of the kids who died, and I wanted to let Mayaâs parents know how sorry I am about everything. But no oneâs answering the number I have. I remember she said her grandma worked at the heritage center in Skidegate, so Iâm sorry to bother you, but this was the only thing I could think of.â
âIâm afraid I canât help, either,â the woman said. âHer parents are in Vancouver for the funeral.â
âVancouver?â I thought Iâd misheard and sheâd said Victoria.
âMayaâs grandmother was hoping it would be on the island, but the people who ran the town are in charge, and I guess . . .â She trailed off. âI know they took the parents to Vancouver after the crash. Maybe they think going back to the island would be too much of a reminder. Itâs all such a horrible tragedy. I think everyoneâs just relieved someone else is handling the arrangements.â
Yes, I was sure the St. Clouds were happy to make the arrangements. Get the families to Vancouverâfarther from usâafter the crash. Hold the service there so it would be smaller. Get this charade over with as fast as possible, then whisk them off to parts unknown.
âHave they had the funeral already?â I asked. âI was kind of hoping to go.â
âItâs the day after tomorrow. You should be able to find details in the Victoria newspaper. Mayaâs grandmother has a cell phone, but sheâs spending the day on Galiano at a friendâs cabin. A retreat before the funeral. Sheâll be out of touch while sheâs there.â
Weâd spent time at my grandmaâs friendâs place on Galiano. I could get us there, and it was a lot closer than Skidegate.
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G ALIANO IS THE SECOND largest of the Gulf Islands, between the mainland and