smiling while he told his tall tales. Daddy would have on a wide grin and talk about how one day he was going to have a big house and a fine car. Mama would shake her head and call him a dreamer. Gramma would tell her to let a man have his dreams because sometimes that was all a colored man had that he could call his own. Daddyâs eyes would start to water and Elijah would ask him to tell another tall tale. Daddy would pick up his pipe, light it, and take a few puffs. Then he would tell us about the time he caught a rattlesnake and had it for his supper. I missed my daddy, tall and brown.
The table was cleared and Mama put my cake on the table. Ten candles lit the darkened room. Before I blew them out, I made a wish. I wished that I wouldnât spend all of my life in Sulphur. Then I thought and made the same wish for Ruth. I wanted to send Mama a postcard from Paris once, maybe twice. I suppose I was like Daddy, a dreamer. My breath caught all ten candles and they lost their little flames.
Mama cut the cake and I ate two pieces. Ruth ate three because she had a sweet tooth. Miss Lutherine and Sister Goodnight found their way home and we were sent to bed. We kissed Elijah and Gramma, hugged Mama, went into our room, and closed the door.
While we were getting undressed, I told Ruth, âIâm gonna be a teacher, like Mrs. Redcotton.â
Ruth rolled her eyes and replied, âYouâs just like Daddy, Leah ... silly. Get the key to the red rose box and put on the hundred percent silk bed jacket.â
âNo,â I told her. âIâm savin it for Hollywood.â I kept talking. âOne day Iâm gonna send you a postcard from Paris, France.â
Ruth said, âIâm gonna be in Paris, France, with you,â and we laughed until our sounds made their way under the door and Mama told us to stop all that noise and turn off the light. I checked under the birthday card to make sure the key was still there, turned off the light, and climbed into the top of the bed. Ruth slept at the bottom and she started wiggling as usual, kicking me with her feet.
I told her, âIf you donât stop, Iâm gonna throw you off the train and you ainât never gonna see Los Angeles.â Then she stopped or fell asleep. I canât be sure which.
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E arly the next morning, Elijah drove Mama to Lake Charles to buy a few things for the trip and Gramma sat down in our kitchen. She sipped ice water and the sun lit half her face.
I was braiding Ruthâs hair into seven braids instead of two.
Gramma told me, âTake all them braids out. Yâall ainât no pickaninnies.â
âMrs. Redcotton says that ainât is not a real word,â I said.
âIâm sure Mrs. Redcotton knows what sheâs talkin bout,â she replied.
Ruth asked her, âWhatâs a pickaninny?â
âGals with more than three nappy braids on their head. More than three nappy braids, thatâs a pickaninny.â
I told her, âEmma Snow got good hair. Her hair donât even need no pressin comb. She still got five or six braids, sometimes seven or eight.â
Gramma crossed her legs, took another sip of water, and said, âStill a pickaninny.â
âOh,â I replied.
Ruth turned and the comb fell from my hand. She looked into Grammaâs eyes and asked, âWhy Mama been so mad at her?â
Gramma put down her glass. âMad at who?â
âOlivia. Mama been so mad and the letter didnât say nuthin but âI am very sorry.â â
Gramma stirred the water with her finger. Pieces of ice bumped one another, small icebergs in a small ocean. âWhat yâall doin readin your mamaâs mail?â
âWe was curious,â I replied.
Ruth added, âAnd nosy, too nosy not to. It was peekin outta her apron pocket.â
Gramma stood, walked over to the window, pulled the curtains closed like she was trying to