answered. âLetâs go. Coming, Lance?â
Lance got up. âNot so big on the game myself.â
Why wasnât I here with Marc like I was supposed to be? Now I was going to be left alone like a big loser.
âComing, Cecily?â Lance reached out his hand to help me up. His expression was hypnotic, inviting.
I took his hand. Even though the evening was cool, his grasp was firm and warm. I got to my feet. âAnd I do know Cecilyâs not your name. But I like it anyway.â
At that crazy, intoxicating moment, he could have called me Egg Salad Superstar for all I cared. He helped me down the bleachers, even though it was pretty obvious his eyes were watching every move Farah made. I couldnât fault him. When Farah moved, everyone watched. I prayed my hand wouldnât get clammy. I could sweat like a gymnast in under a minute â always when I was trying to impress someone.
Being with a guy still strained my sense of balance. It wouldnât take much to topple me over. Marc was okay, though. I was fairly relaxed around him. We had been dating for almost two months â which, at my school, was like forever. Marc wasnât experienced either, so we kind of bumbled along together. Everyone considered us a couple. Although sometimes when I was walking with him, the word âposerâ echoed in my mind.
Last week, Marc and I had finally kissed. Iâd never in a million years tell Farah, but it was a total disaster. Maybe I didnât know what I was doing or maybe I was too self-conscious. Either way, it wasnât close to what I saw in the movies or heard gushed about in the girlsâ bathroom.
And the second time wasnât any better than the first. I guess a person needs more than one kiss to be an expert.
So, being with Lance was way over the top, and I felt giddy. The fact he hadnât let go of my hand sent actual heat up my spine. I nearly stumbled down each step, trying to keep our hands connected and to keep from falling into him. I willed myself not to sweat.
âHey, Lance,â some girl yelled. It was Megan Rochester, standing and waving wildly. Lance tipped his head at her, and gave her a smile. I felt a ping in my heart and frowned. I wanted all his smiles, which was absurd considering I barely knew him and certainly had no claim on him.
Thinking about claims, it occurred to me we were in public view, and I was supposedly Marcâs girl. Crap.
This couldnât go on. I needed to talk to Marc. It wasnât right to feel this way about one guy while going out with another. I heard a commotion and then saw Jeannie lean over her friends and call out to me with a voice like an electric drill, âHey, Emili, fancy seeing you hereâ¦â
Lance kept pulling me down the steps. I glanced back but didnât have a chance to answer as the cheering exploded into a frenzy.
When we emerged from the heavy metal fence around the field, Farah made the pretense of adjusting her skirt. I knew that move. Iâd seen her do it a hundred times in front of the mirror. She grasped the hem and tugged a bit; she almost always ended up hitching the skirt higher. Lance and Pete both had their eyes glued.
Lance dropped my hand. I sighed.
Well, it served me right. I shouldnât have been holding his hand in the first place.
âWhereâs your car?â Farah asked.
âThis way.â Pete took her arm and we started across the street to the parking lot.
What happened next was like watching a bad movie. At the entrance gate, there was Marc being let off from his parentsâ blue mini-van. I did a double take. Marc had clearly said he wasnât coming, and since when did he ever change his plans?
For one mad moment, I almost ran over there and threw myself in his arms. Seeing him sent relief throughout my entire body. But then I realized where I was and who I was with. My relief morphed into cold dread.
I lurched ahead to the parking lot