itâs . . . pleasant to be reminded of more.â
By the thickness in Maraâs voice, Zenobia thought that
pleasant
couldnât convey the emotions the memories truly evoked. âItâs good that youâre here, then.â
âYes.â
âWould you enjoy living in Krakentown?â
Oh, Zenobia hadnât meant to blurt out the question like that. Anxiety bound her chest again, pulling tighter and tighter when a brief silence fell, as if sheâd surprised the other woman.
Finally Mara said, âCooper and I would like it very much,â but the mercenaryâs response didnât make it easier for Zenobia to breathe.
âI love him,â she whispered, and now sheâd exposed her heart to two peopleâher brother and her guard.
This time there was no hesitation before Mara replied, âI know.â She finished with the sash, and concern creased her brow when she came around to study Zenobiaâs face. âAre you well?â
Not trusting her voice, Zenobia nodded. She was perfectly well. She just had lungs that wouldnât breathe. A heart that wouldnât stop racing. And feet that didnât trust the ground beneath them.
But perhaps she should have expected this uncertainty. Her world had turned completely upside down in the past two monthsâquite literally. She stood in a different hemisphere on the opposite side of the earth from where sheâd been. And sheâd changed, too. When sheâd left home, Zenobia hadnât been in love; now she was in so deep with Ariq that she could drown in it. Sheâd been a virgin; now she was so thoroughly ravished and eager to ravish him that every night had become an unending pleasure. Sheâd been a woman who hid and waited for ransom; now she would make a bludgeon and fashion her own escape.
In many ways, she was the same woman whoâd boarded an airship in Fladstrand. But there had been shifts within her, some like shivers and some like earthquakes, and so it was no surprise that she wasnât yet steady.
And sheâd worried that Ariq had fallen in love with the spy rather than the woman she was? It wouldnât have mattered if heâd known the truth. She would still be a different person now than the one heâd first met. She just had to trust that he would move with her when she shifted and quaked.
Not so easy, trust. Not so easy, hope. But the realization helped her settle a little.
Mara must have thought so, too. The concern smoothed away from her expression and she retrieved her bathing basket. âAre you worried because you havenât yet received news from Krakentown?â
Not a word from Ariqâs brother or from Lieutenant Blanchett, though heâd expected to hear from them the previous day. Ariq had been quiet that morning while readying to leave, his tension bordering on that terrifying calm. âSome. Iâm trying not to think the worst. Ariq might have received a message today.â
âAnd if he hasnât?â
âThen we will do what we must.â
Though Zenobia had no idea what that might beâonly that whatever Ariq decided, she would stand with him.
Mara nodded. âAnd you know Cooperâs and my services are at your . . .â
Tilting her head, she trailed off before setting her basket down. Zenobia stilled, listening.
Only the ocean, the birds, and the expected noises of airship traffic and life in the tower.
âWait here.â Mara left the chamber.
Zenobia rushed to the door. Sheâd wait as told. But sheâd look.
An airship hovered off the western terrace. Painted a bright red and with white sails like fins, the sleek cruiser resembled a flying fishâthough she had not seen many fish with gilded fins and ornate gold scrollwork decorating their snouts. Too opulent for a hired ship, it could only be a private vessel. Someone who hoped to speak with Ariq?
Though the engines hummed