heâd thought they were going to throw him out of the Unit then and there. Like a condemned man, heâd pleaded for another chance and theyâd let him do a special two-day course to catch up. Now, he wasnât so sure he should have been so flaming keen. If heâd kept his mouth shut theyâdâve replaced him and heâdâve ended up with another crew, not this lot. Still, too late now. Too bloody bad, sport!
Christ, what a way to crew-up! They stuck you in a hangar with a hundred or more other blokes you didnât know from Adam â pilots, navigators, bomb aimers, wireless operators, gunners â all milling about,and told you to sort yourselves out, chaps! You were expected to pick your partners like you were at a bloody dance. Only you werenât choosing partners for an eveningâs hoofing; you were trying to pick the men you were going to have to trust with your own sweet life.
Heâd wandered about the hangar, not knowing what the hell to do for the best, and when heâd stopped for a fag his lighter had gone u/s on him. A bloke standing nearby with pilotâs wings and a Canada shoulder flash had given him a light and it had seemed a good idea to join up with another colonial, not being too sure about the Poms, so theyâd shaken hands on it. Later, of course, heâd discovered that Van was really a Yank in disguise. Pretty soon Harry had come by with the kid Charlie in tow, like a minnow on a line. Theyâd still needed a navigator, until Piers had come up, stammering and blushing like a sheila, and asked if theyâd mind
awfully
if he butted in. If theyâd known then that he couldnât find his way out of a paper bag, theyâdâve minded quite a lot. Bert had teamed up with them as mid-upper gunner when theyâd gone on from Wellingtons to Lanes, and their flight engineer had been assigned whether he liked it or not. Poor old Jock, heâd had lousy luck to get stuck with them. Well, they were all stuck with each other and all you could do was bloody pray.
It was a frightful scrum in the Officersâ Mess. Piers waited his turn patiently to order a sherry and stand his skipper a beer â the least he could do after the mess heâd made of navigating. âIâm terribly sorry about making such a hash of things again today, Van.â
âForget it. Iâm just as sorry about that landing.â
âGosh, thatâs all right. It can happen to anyone, I expect.â
âNot to most guys. Maybe weâll both improve, in time. Cigarette?â
âThanks awfully. I rather like your American ones.â
He took one of Vanâs Chesterfields. The smoke felt good going into his lungs; so did the sherry going down his throat. They both made him feel better. After all, he wasnât the only one whoâd messed up; that landing
had
been bloody awful. Heâd really thought they were going to cartwheel, in which case that would probably have been that. Heâd seen a Halifax do it: stand on one wingtip and flip right over like an acrobat before it had gone up in a mighty whoomph. No-one had got out. And he couldnât see them getting out of a Lanc quickly, either. If anything happened in the air, they were all supposed to bail out by the nose escape hatch so they didnât go and smash into the tail. On the ground, in flames, God knows if theyâd be able to get to
any
exit in time. Theyâd probably be caught like rats in a trap. He tried not to think about that. Not much point. In fact, absolutely no point at all.
Just the same, heâd no regrets about volunteering. The parents would have preferred him to go into the Army, following family tradition, but heâd always liked the idea of flying. If he hadnât failed the course, heâd have been a pilot, but navigator wasnât a bad alternative. And it wasnât as though he didnât know his stuff â you couldnât