immensely grateful for that.
âIâve often wondered what kind of woman youâd become,â Amabel said. âLooks to me like youâve become a fine one. This messâand thatâs what it isâit will pass. Everything will be resolved, youâll see.â She was silent a moment, remembering the affection sheâd felt for the little girl, that bone-deep desire to keep her close, to hug her until she squeaked. It surprised her that it was still there. She didnât like it, nor did she want it.
âCareful of leaning on that end of the table, Sally. Purn Davies wanted to fix it for me, but I wouldnât let him.â She knew Sally wasnât hearing her, but it didnât matter, Amabel was just making noise until Sally got some of that brandy in her belly.
âThis teaâs something else, Amabel. Strange, but good.â She took another drink, then another. She felt warmth pooling in her stomach. She realized she hadnât felt this warm in more than five days.
âYou might as well tell me now, Sally. You came here so you could protect your mama, didnât you, baby?â
Sally took another big drink of the tea. What could she say? She said nothing.
âDid your mama kill your papa?â
Sally set down her cup and stared into it, wishing she knew the truth of things, but that night was as murky in her mind as the tea in the bottom of her cup. âI donât know,â she said finally. âI just donât know, but they think I do. They think Iâm either protecting Noelle or running because I did it. Theyâre trying to find me. I didnât want to take a chance, so thatâs why Iâm here.â
Was she lying? Amabel didnât say anything. Shemerely smiled at her niece, who looked exhausted, her face white and pinched, her lovely blue eyes as faded and worn as an old dress. She was too thin; her sweater and slacks hung on her. In that moment her niece looked very old, as if she had seen too much of the wicked side of life. Well, it was too bad, but there was more wickedness in the world than anyone cared to admit.
She said quietly as she stared down into her teacup, âIf your mama did kill her husband, Iâll bet the bastard deserved it.â
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S ALLY NEARLY DROPPED her cup. She set it carefully down. âYou knew?â
âSure. All of us did. The first time I ever got to see you was when she brought you home. I was passing through. Thatâs all our folks ever wanted me to doâpass through and not say much or show my face much, particularly to all their friends. Anyway, your mama showed up. She was running away from him, she said. She also said sheâd never go back. She was bruised. She cried all the time.
âBut her resolve didnât last long. He called her two nights later and she flew back home the next day, with you all wrapped in a blanket. You werenât even a year old then. She wouldnât talk about it to me. I never could understand why a woman would let herself be beaten whenever a man decided he wanted to do it.â
âI couldnât either. I tried, Aunt Amabel. I really tried, but she wouldnât listen. What did my grandparents say?â
Amabel shrugged, thinking of her horrified father, staring at beautiful Noelle, wondering what the devil he would do if the press got wind of the juicy story that his son-in-law, Amory St. John, was a wife beater. And their mother, shrinking away from her daughter as if she had some sort of vile disease. She hadnât cared either. She just didnât want the press to find out because it would hurt the familyâs reputation.
âThey arenât what youâd call real warm parents, Sally. They pretended not to believe that your papa had beat your mama. They looked at Noelle, saw all those bruises, and denied all of it. They told her she shouldnât tell lies like that. Your mama was a real mess, arguing with them,